Simply Because I'm Yours.

Stella. Pt 2

He felt pure pleasure. Hearing the noises he made turned me on beyond compare. I could care less if he never touches me because the amount of pleasure that I got from simply hearing him. The feeling oh him. Every part of his body I felt was perfection. I wanted to trace my fingers on every inch of his body and appreciate every single part. I wanted him to be 100% sure of me. I wanted him to want to feel me.

As lame as it may seem, I have never done anything. Of course, I've had my fair share of not so family friendly actions. I've done things and everything... I just haven't lost my virginity. Because I knew it was him I wanted to lose it with him. I wanted him to absolutely destroy me. I wanted him to treat me like no other. A couple years back I heard he did it with an ex. Pretty lame. But god, the thing is I can't even blame her. Who wouldn't want him all over her? God, even the thought of him fucks me up. It makes me feel some type of way. Imagining him going in and out of me. Picking up the pace. I wanted him to get all his sexual frustrations out on me. I wanted him to want me to the point he couldn't control himself.

He's still right under me, I still had complete control of him as I please. He slowly puts his hand around my waist. He lifts me up. The slow intense making out. We couldn't be away from each other. We didn't want to. I know what I wanted and god was I hoping he wanted the same. I wanted to be his. I wanted him to use me as he pleased. I wanted to be there for his pleasure. I wanted to pleasure him and only him. I never wanted another girl to fucking lay a finger on him. Not even think about him.

He kind of glides his hand onto my back as he slowly places me on the chair. I liked feeling his hands on me. His touch felt euphoric and I couldn't get enough. I didn't want to get enough. I wanted him forever I really did. The gown had a slit in it. Two parts to the bottom, one covering the other. I know if he wanted anything he could easily access me. Just as I predicted, his hand gently slides the top part over, and then the bottom. I am his too access. He has me all for himself.

He glides his fingers slowly up my thigh, as if asking permission.

Do with me as you please.

He found me perfectly. He slowly slides his fingers into me. His fingers feel so nice. He's still slowly kissing me. I loved that he wasn't too fast. He wasn't just trying to get this over with and done. He wanted to do it right. I feel his fingers slowly move in and out of me. I know we're in public and I can't get us caught. I was struggling to stay quiet. He was making me feel so good. I found thrill in it all. I couldn't even look at him. I had always struggled with eye contact so imagine how impossible it was to look him in the eyes now. I gripped his hand once again and tilted my head up.

Ring Ring Ring

Are you serious? Out of all the times I could've gotten a call it has to be right now? Damn it.

"FUCK." I sprung up and rushed to the corner of the room, my phone must've fallen off the little table and on the floor considering how we were all over each other in every part of the room. I check the caller ID and just as any nightmare would go. "It's my dad."

God if this man even peeps a noise we will both be dead. I was breathless but I quickly catch my breath and bring myself back before picking up. Stay quiet Rowan. It's not like that'll be the first time today you've had to keep yourself quiet if you catch my meaning...

Hey hun, are you guys still at the mall? "Yeah."

Alright, I have to go to Seattle just for tonight to seal the deal with Theo. "Okay."

Sophia will stay at the house with you along with Xavier. "Okay."

Please remember to eat. "Yup. I will."

You need to take care of yourself. "Okay."

I'll see you tomorrow morning, I'm leaving now. "Okay, be safe."

I still want you home at 11. Not a minute later. "Okay."

Love you. "Okay, love you too."

This is the moment I look up at him and smile.

"I don't know if it's a good thing you're smiling so hard after talking to Jasper like this," He says.

"He's going to Seattle to meet up with Theo to seal off their deal, Sophia is staying the night with Xavier in the west wing of the house. He still wants me home at 11 though." I look him up and down. I know this is the one moment I can take this to my advantage. I want him. Just for this once.

"Stella. You're going to be the literal end of me." He walks over to me and kisses my forehead then gives me a small kiss. He walks out to let me change.

I really need to give myself a minute and think about everything. I need to process everything that just happened. What are we? What will we be? Is this going to lead to anything? This isn't just a hookup right? Does he love me? Will he love me? Am I ready? I think so, right? What if he leaves me? What if I do this all for nothing?

As there is a million thoughts rushing through my head. I'm seriously so in love with him to the point I get so scared. I don't want him to leave. I don't want him to reject me. I would never force him to do anything and I hope he knows that. It would be cool if one day I got the chance to call him mine and all but, I wanted it to be on his terms. I would wait a million years for him if he asked me to. I love him more than I would be willing to admit. I really do. I don't think I could see myself without him. When I see him, I feel complete. His voice is my serenity, I feel safe with him. I had never felt safe growing up. I blame my father for that. But, with him I did. I found that strange yet extremely comforting.

I just don't see how anybody couldn't be in love with him. He has this smile that is the cheesiest thing ever and I love it, it could bring comfort to millions if he wanted. He has this voice that is so calm and gentle that makes you feel a sense of security with him. The way he speaks is written straight out of a book, it doesn't matter what he's talking about, he sounds go genuine. He has these dark brown eyes, they give such soft sincere looks that you can't even try to ignore because there is no way to ignore him. He has the purest of souls that just makes you want to hold him and protect him, just never let anything bad happen to him ever.

I think it's worth a shot to try and let him know that. I walk out and in this long empty hallway filled of dressing rooms I look up at him and hold my hand. I smile and in the most sincere way to state it to him I say, "I'll be sure to make it worth while."

He gives me one of his big ol' cheesy smiles. God, I really love him.

We walk up to the register and I put the dress on there. It has a couple wrinkles and she looks up at me and gives me the most awkward look, I'm not even gonna lie that was hilarious. We check out and we go walk around the mall some more. We still talk and keep the conversation going. I liked talking to him, he always kept the conversation going, he made sure it never seemed like he wanted the conversation to end. We walked around for a while and left around 6. I didn't want to leave, I enjoyed having his company.

2018 Dodge Challenger, that's the car he has. Impressive, right? He's such a show off. We walk out and I open the backseat door to put my dress and his suit inside but he opened his trunk.

OH.

I put my dress in the trunk along by his suit. He goes and opens the passenger door and lets me get in. I buckle in and before anything, I feel his thumb lift up my chin to look at him and after he looks at me for a second he kisses me. He smiles and closes my door and walks along the front of the car. OH MY GOD. Why is everything he does so attractive? Like actually? I always thoughts things like those only happen in the movies but I guess I was wrong.

He drives to the top of a nearby mountain, it was a city overlook. It was always empty. It was so pretty, I don't see why. I've always admired how pretty it looks up here but I guess not everybody does. I think the sky always looked so pretty from the view up here. But then again, it's the middle of the week, everybody is busy or going home. He puts the car in park and comes to open my door. What a gentlemen. I sure fucking hope. I get out and as he shut the passenger door I open the back door, we go inside.

He slowly leans in as if asking for permission so this time, I get closer to him and start again. Slow gentle kisses. Just like that. That's how it began...