The Vow

7

My parents arrived yesterday afternoon from Australia, kaya ito, andito na kami sa bahay namin talaga, katabi lang ng bahay nila Kuya, kapit-bahay lang kami.

Kuya told them about what happened to me sa swimming namin nung weekends, and he also told them na icocontinue ko yung session ko.

Kaya ayun, ito ako, nagreready para pumunta ng ospital for my first session. I am just wearing a cropped top and my high waisted pants tsaka sneakers. I put my phone and wallet sa sling bag ko at lumabas na.

"Aalis ka na? Gamitin mo daw muna yung sasakyan ni Ate Gina mo, ito yung susi" sabi ni Daddy

"Thank you, Daddy" sabi ko at nagsmile.

"Anak, matatapos rin lahat, ok? Kapit ka lang, kasi kami kumakapit kami at lumalaban para sayo. Ok?"

"Thank you, Daddy. I love you"

"We love you too so much" sabi ni Daddy at niyakap ako.

Humalik ako sa pisngi ni Mommy at umalis narin para pumunta sa psychiatrist kong unggoy.

Pagkarating ko, dumiretso ako sa tinext ni Kuya na room number sa akin at may babae sa labas.

"Hi, ahm, I have an appointment with Dr. Davis"

"Name po?"

"Belle Kasandra Leigh Cooper. Beka Cooper"

"Ah ok po, hinihintay na po kayo ni Doc" sabi nya at ngumiti ng tipid. She looked at me from head to toe.

Bitch! Mas angat ako sayo, sorry!

Kumatok sya at binuksan ng konti ang pinto.

"Doc, andito na po si Miss Beka Cooper"

"Send her in" sabi nung unggoy kaya pinapasok na nya ako. She closed the door at ako naman naiwang nakatayo dito sa may harap nya. "Have a seat, Beka"

Umupo ako sa upuan sa tapat ng mesa nya at nanahimik. Actually, kinakabahan ako, hindi ko alam kung maaayos pa ba ako o hindi na.

"Hunter already gave me an overview. Also, your previous doctor in Australia gave him your records that he gave me. You were diagnosed with depression when you were 14, and it's continuing until now?"

"It stopped for a while"

"Is it? Or only the session stopped? When was the last time you had sessions?"

"The last one was before my 22nd birthday. I stopped coming on my sessions"

"Why?"

"I thought you have my records? Eh bakit nagtatanong ka pa? I told my doctor kung bakit ako nag-stop, didn't she put it in my records?"

"She did, but, there's a remark here saying that it's a lie. Why would you lie to your doctor?" Sabi nya.

Natahimik ako sa sinabi nya. Yeah! I did lie, and I also lied to my family na pinapastop ni Dr. Lavigne yung session ko kasi I'm getting better.

"Does your family know na ikaw mismo nagstop ng session mo?"

"No, please don't tell my brother" sabi ko.

"Then tell me why would you lie? Beka, I'm your psychiatrist now, and I don't want a liar patient, or mapipilitan akong ibuko ka sa family mo"

"Fine! I lied, yes, I lied. It's just that, I became busy with work and I thought I was getting ok, and I just thought, nothing can fix me. This is me now, a girl with a severe depression, I won't get better"

"You're giving me a challenge. You're quite a challenge, and you're a doctor, meaning you know that Doctors are always up for a challenge" sabi nya habang nakatingin sakin.