Young & In Love || 18+

Chapter 21: Maybe We Still Need A Little Bit More Progress

I woke up the next morning and my whole body was sore. Ryder was still in bed with me and I didn't want to wake him so I stayed where I was. I also didn't wanna leave him. I'd miss laying in bed naked next to him. I also missed the morning after sex with him. It was always refreshing and it felt good knowing that he was mine and I was his. Even though we aren't together, it still feels nice knowing that he is the only person I will ever love.

Ryder moved a little and so did I. He kissed my forehead.

"Good morning, tesoro," he said.

I smiled and he kissed my forehead again but this time letting the kiss linger.

"Good morning, lovebirds." Xioe said from the other side of the room.

We both jumped and turned to see her standing by the door. She waved and smirked.

"Hey, zo." I said, trying to make it sound like she didn't just scare the living shit out of me.

"So, what you two doing?" she asked, smiling.

"Uhm, not much. Just laying in bed." Ryder said.

"I mean yeah I see that but you know, usually you're only here when she can't sleep and you're both fully clothed when you do that but right now you're not. So, what the hell is going on?" she asked, still having that goofy little smirk on her face.

I picked up a pillow and threw it at her. She caught it and laughed.

"Ok, ok. I see that neither of you are ready to talk about it right now but later I'ma need some answers. Ok?"

"Xioe get out." I said.

"It's my dorm too."

"Yeah but shouldn't you be with Josh."

"That's where I'm headed."

"Can I have my pillow back?"

She rolled her eyes and threw the pillow back. She then looked at me and I pointed towards the door. She sighed and started walking towards the door. When she was gone, I sighed.

I turned my head to see Ryder already looking at me. He didn't say anything and started getting out of bed. I didn't say anything until he came back with sweatpants on and some water in his hand.

"What's this?" I asked.

He opened his hand and I sighed. He got the pills. I looked up at him.

"It's only one for right now," he said.

"Ok." I said.

"Don't do that."

"Do what?"

"Pretend like you're ok with taking these pills when you're not."

"Well it's either I throw a bitch fit about them or I just suck it up and take them."

He looked at me. He crouched down to my level and stared at me. He sighed and gave me the water and the pill. I stared at it and then decided to take it. I swallowed it and sipped some of the water I had. I handed him the water and he put it on my dresser. He got up and went back over to the bathroom. I laid down on the bed and just stared at the wall.

I did that a lot after I took my pills. I would take them and then just stare at the wall for what seemed like hours and it was. I would just let the pills take full control of me. I didn't care whether or not it was bad even though I knew it was but I was tired and annoyed.

I continued to stare at the wall until Ryder came back over. He climbed into the bed and wrapped his arm around me. He got closer to me and I turned around to see him. He was staring at me and I felt like I needed to hug him. I got closer to him and placed my head on his chest. I hugged him and he held me.