Dangerous games| with Sope

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Did I enjoy my adventure with Jungkook?

Yes.

I wanted him. But... Yoongi's situation added to the decision.

Do I regret it?

I am not sure.

Can I start some kind of serious relationship with Yoongi after sleeping with Jungkook too? What kind of person would I be if I tried to build a relationship with him by hurting him like that?

I don't need a serious relationship, so I don't need Yoongi. Right?

I don't need him.

Even though I know I need him. I just don't fully understand in what way I need him. Because I'm doing everything I can to deny myself and him about my feelings for him.

I am a mess...

What am I doing anyway? I don't understand anything anymore.

I want them all. Yoongi, Hoseok, and now Jungkook. But I want them all differently.

I need to deal with my feelings, thoughts, and desires.

Maybe I need to take a break from all BTS members?

Maybe then I would understand what I really want?
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"Y/n, you should have breakfast." Jungkook looked at me with a concerned face.

"I don't think I have anything in the fridge." I admitted.

"No way. You're joking." Jungkook hurried into the kitchen.

After I finished doing my makeup, I went to check what he was doing in the kitchen.

I saw breakfast already steaming on the table. Jungkook was making coffee.

"Did you still find something to eat?" I giggled.

"It was a challenge to make something tasty out of what I found, but I think I managed." He put two cups of black coffee on the table. "Enjoy." His face lit up with a bunny smile.

"Thank you, Jungkook. Really. You take care of me, you're so caring and gentle." I gazed at him lovingly.

"That's what friends are for, to take care of each other."

I started eating without waiting, I didn't have much time, I had to go to work soon.

[...]

"Bye, princess. I had a wonderful time with you. And not just because of what we did in the morning. I just love spending time with you." We were standing in the parking lot of my apartment.

"As for that adventure..." I went silent for a moment. I didn't really know what to say.

"Nothing needs to be said. This sex hasn't changed anything at all between us. We're still friends. We don't need to talk about it, you don't need to think about it. Like I said before, our bodies lusted for each other doesn't change anything at all. Neither of us wants anything more than friendship. Even though you don't admit it, you feel something much more for Yoongi. And even though I know everything, his feelings for you, I still wanted to sleep with you. But I'm telling you that doesn't have any commitments and doesn't mean anything more than the satisfaction of bodily pleasures. We both wanted it and we did it. And despite everything, I just want to be your friend. Of course, the sex was amazingly good, so I don't mind if we do it again. But anyway, with or without sex, I want to stay your friend, I want to be in your life."

"I hope that in the end, we will still be friends. Although I don't even know myself what will happen next, or what decisions I will make. But you are a really good friend. And I don't want to lose you." I smiled shyly.