Dangerous games| with Sope

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"Oh, Y/n. I didn't even mean to like you this much, but I did... Your looks, your eyes, your lips, your smile. Your voice, your laugh, the way you look at me. Your personality, character, mind, and vibe. I simply got stuck to you. I fell into your trap." Yoongi spoke quietly to himself

Fuck... He thinks I'm asleep..

But I'm not asleep...

And I heard everything perfectly...

Does he like me? Like more than a friend with benefits?

Have I understood this correctly?
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I didn't know what to think, let alone what I should do now. Pretend to be asleep or say something?

I felt panic fill my body in just a few seconds.

Did I understand correctly?

I realized that I only had a moment to decide what to do.

"Yoongi..." I whispered softly.

I felt Yoongi stiffen. He stopped stroking my back, he didn't even breathe.

I got up enough out of his embrace to look into his eyes. Yoongi looked at me with big, surprised, and even confused eyes.

"Fuck... You heard everything..." Yoongi furrowed his brow.

"Yes, I heard everything. And even though I could have pretended to be asleep, I chose not to. I think honesty is important in our relationship." I looked at him gently, not wanting to make him feel bad or uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry... I know we're just friends with benefits and you're happy with that kind of relationship. And I shouldn't have said what I said, it's wrong."

I sat up in bed, and Yoongi did the same.

"That I've unintentionally heard your thoughts, feelings. I should make some kind of confession too. I have something to tell you. And what I say now may change your opinion of me. I will understand completely if, after my words, you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore." I could feel my voice starting to shake.

I knew I could lose Yoongi forever. And I don't want that at all. He is insanely important to me. I can't imagine my life without him. But I should have thought about that before I started the whole game with Sope.

"You can tell me anything and know that nothing can change the way I feel about you." Yoongi smiled encouragingly.

I sighed loudly. "Don't say that until you hear me..."

I couldn't look him in the eye anymore. I clutched my hands and stared at them. Panic had already gripped my whole body.

I put my hands over my mouth, thinking about the best way to tell him everything. I looked briefly into his eyes, he was waiting patiently for me. I covered my whole face with my hands and shook my head gently.

I took a few deep breaths and looked at Yoongi. My hands were shaking from anxiety, so I was gripping them.

"So, you know that I started talking to you and Hoseok at the same time." My throat went dry. "And the relationship with you and Hobi went very similar. I have the same relationship with both of you, you're both my friends with benefits." It seemed like I was about to faint. "Neither of you talked about anything more serious, about a serious relationship with me, neither of you talked about becoming my boyfriend. I know you're close, so I kept wondering if you knew about each other, that you were both sleeping with me. But I haven't told either of you about our relationship. I don't know why. Maybe I was afraid? I was afraid of your reaction and I didn't want to lose any of you. But now that I've heard that your feelings for me are more than just a friend with benefits... I couldn't keep this from you." I felt tears gathering in my eyes. "And now I realize that I don't want to lose you. You are insanely important to me and I like you very much. But I don't even want to imagine what you're thinking about me now... Although I imagine you think I'm just a whore... I fucked up... But I was just floating along and enjoying life, what it gives me. And I guess I knew how it would all work out in the end..." A few tears rolled down my cheeks. "I'm flying home as fast as it will be possible because I know you won't want to see me anymore." I quickly wiped away the tears that were rolling uncontrollably.