Dangerous games| with Sope

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I felt very dizzy, and I think I lost consciousness for a moment. My body and brain just can't take the feelings and the pain that I am feeling now anymore. I reached the sofa with slow steps, holding into walls and furniture. I collapsed into the couch, hugged the panda, and fell into a restless sleep while crying.
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I got up at noon on Thursday. I had a quick shower, put on my comfy pajamas, and settled back on the sofa. All I have left of Yoongi is a plush panda. I hugged the panda and closed my eyes. Uncontrollable tears started rolling down my cheeks.

I didn't want anything. I hadn't eaten for the second day. But I didn't want to. I couldn't even think about the food in my stomach.

All I needed now was Yoongi and just being in his arms.

[...]

I didn't even realize it was evening. The room became dark. And I hadn't gotten off the couch. I just lay there hugging the panda and crying. I fell asleep briefly several times. All day long my phone kept ringing. People were calling and texting. But I hadn't picked up the phone. I didn't want to communicate with anyone.

The night was with little sleep, but with lots of negative emotions and thoughts.

"Yoongi... Yoongi... Yoongi!" I woke up from my sleep. I dreamt about Yoongi, that we were together...

It was already light in the room. That means that morning had already come. I sat down on the sofa and finally took the phone in my hands. It was 10 in the morning. I looked through the messages I had received, and the calls I had missed. Hoseok, Jungkook, and Taehyung were trying to contact me. They were all worried about me, apparently Yoongi told them what had happened.

I understand that I should write to them, but I don't have the will or the energy to do so.

But after thinking about it, I wrote the same message to everyone:

<Sorry for ignoring you. I just need some time alone. I didn't go to work yesterday nor today, my boss gave me a few days off. I don't have the energy or the desire to communicate with anyone right now. All I do now is just lie on the sofa.>

After charging my phone, I fell back on the sofa with a panda and fell asleep.

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Suddenly someone rang my doorbell.

Who could possibly come to me?

I got up from the sofa. I felt very dizzy. No wonder, it's the third day I haven't eaten anything. Not to mention how I feel emotionally.

I went to unlock the door with slow steps. When I opened it, I saw Taehyung.

"Taehyung? What are you doing here?"

"Hi, Y/n. We've all been very worried about you. Can I come in?" He looked very worried.

My brain was working slower than usual. Taehyung was holding several paper bags in his hands.

"Mmm... Yes, of course." I stepped away from the entrance and Taehyung walked into my apartment.

"I came to take care of you. You have no idea how worried I and the other guys were about you. You've become a really good friend to me in a short time. And I don't like the way you're acting now. When I see you now, I imagine that you were doing nothing but lying on that couch, as you wrote. When was the last time you ate?" We both sat down on the sofa.

"Tuesday." I said quietly. I know myself that I'm doing badly. It's the third day I haven't eaten anything.

"Oh my God, Y/n! Do you want to end up in the hospital or just end up dead?" Panic came to his face.