Dangerous games| with Sope

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"Actually... I wanted to talk about how I acted a few days ago when you came over and I was drunk. Why I did that because I think you deserve another apology and explanation." Jungkook looked nervous.

And I felt strange, too, I had a bad presentiment. I didn't know what to expect at all. Or maybe I did? Maybe I knew exactly what he would say next?
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"Okay. So I'm listening to you." I made myself a little more comfortable on the sofa and concentrated on Jungkook.

Jungkook sighed. "I don't know where or how to start."

"Calm down, Jungkook. Just know that no matter what you say now, it won't change anything between us. And I won't judge you. So tell everything as it is. And if you want, what you say now can only stay here, between us, between these walls. No one but us has to know. So just calm down." I reached out my hand and patted Jungkook's hand in a friendly way.

"Okay. Then let's keep everything I say between us." Jungkook paused and looked at his folded hands for a minute.

I felt anxious too. But I didn't show it. I realized one thing, if he wants to keep this conversation between us, it doesn't promise anything good for me.

"I'll start by saying that I want to apologize again for the other night. After I sobered up, I realized that I really scared you. I behaved inappropriately. It would have been bad even if you were single, not in a relationship with Yoongi, but now it's much worse because you are Yoongi's girlfriend. But of course, in any case, I was reckless, disrespectful, and threatening. So I want to apologize from the bottom of my heart for this behavior. I hope that you will be able to forgive me and feel safe and peaceful being with me."

"Kook... Of course, even now I feel completely safe and calm. I must admit that I was really scared at the beginning. But I realized that you were drunk. So, after thinking it over, after the emotions have settled down, I forgive you and we can say it's all behind us." I smiled supportively. I didn't like to see him so sad, vulnerable, and nervous.

"Thank you, Y/n. You really are one of the most wonderful people in my life." For a moment, tears gathered in Jungkook's eyes. "And now I have to tell you why I acted like that, why I was so drunk..." His voice trembled. I could see how hard it was for him.

"Jungkook... Kook... Calm down. Look at me."

Jungkook looked up at me.

"Breathe. Breathe in, breathe out and calm down. It's okay." I moved closer to Jungkook and put my palm on his. I could see that he was really struggling.

Jungkook closed his eyes for a moment and took a deep breath.

"Remember when you said before we slept together that one of us might feel something? Something more?"

"Yeah." I tried to stay calm.

"So after that time we slept together. When you screamed my name, while you had your orgasm. I can't forget you. Whenever I lie in bed at night and close my eyes, I see your face distorted by pleasure, I feel all of you, I hear you. And all I can think is that I want you again. That I want to feel you again. And no, it's not love. I'm madly lusting for your body and that lust is getting out of control. I find it hard to control myself, especially when I'm drunk. That's why I behaved like that, so unpredictably." Jungkook could no longer maintain eye contact with me, so he lowered his eyes into his hands.

I wanted to start screaming. But I realized that I had to control myself and react as calmly as possible.

"Kook... I don't want to say now that I said something like this could happen. Because we both made that decision to sleep together. You know, since it's going to stay between us... I can be completely honest with you." I sighed deeply. "Yes, I'm in a relationship with Yoongi. I love him, I desire him. My whole body wants him. But... But you and our one wild adventure have stuck very vividly in my memory. And I can't deny that my body wants you too. Probably, as we said, we just feel a strong physical attraction to each other. We could be great bedfellows." I laughed, trying to break the tension. "Calm down, Kook... Even though you feel worse than I do... I'm sure time will pass and things will work out, the lust will lessen and we can be just friends. We had one good adventure in bed, but it can't happen again. And we both understand that. I want you in my life, but as a friend. Only as a friend."