You're Still The One (Sandro Marcos FF)

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"Oyyy putangina ang cu-cuteeee" saad ni ate ching

Nandito kami ngayon sa mga baby clothes.

"Oh this things are so cute!" Saad ni ate grace

"Oh my god! Look at this little puffer jacket" Saad ko habang hawak ang maliit na jacket

"Ang cutieeee" saad ni ate ching

"That is so tiny, it's like the size of my hand" saad ni ate grace kaya natawa ako

Huhu ang cute!

"I want to get this!" Saad ko habang nakangisi

Bahala na kung lalaki o babae basta bibili na ako.

"Cassy, look at this polo oh ang cute" saad ni ate ching

"Kuha ka nyan, mga anim" saad ko

"Ang dami naman" saad ni ate ching

"Hayaan mo na, nag eenjoy sya eh" saad ni ate grace

"Cassy tignan mo to, matching set na" saad ni ate ching

I gave her a thumbs up sinyales na kuhain na nya.

Hindi ko mapigilang ang sarili ko na bumili ng madami.

Naglakad kami papunta sa mga sapatos.

Sobrang cute!

"Buntis ito oh look" saad ni ate ching kaya lumingon ako

May hawak syang maliit na sapatos.

Gusto ko ng umiyak.

Exited na akong suotin ng mga anak ko to!

"I'm gonna start crying" saad ko natawa naman si ate grace

Hagkkkkk!

"Ito oh medyas" saad ni ate grace

"Look how cute this sweater is though" saad ni ate ching 

Ayaw ko na, suko na ako.

Bibilhin ko na lahat toh.

[Sandro's pov]

I'm here at home, crying and drinking alcohol.

I can't believe she left me.

Hiniwalayan nya ako.

What's wrong with her?

Wala kaming pinag-usapan na hihiwalayan nya ako.

Tapos aalis sya ng ganon-ganon nalang.

Hindi nya ba naiisip kung anong mararamdaman ko?

Wala na siguro syang pakeelam sa akin.

Halo-halo na ang emosyon ko.

Nagagalit ako na naiinis sakanya.

Pero kahit anong gawin ko, kasalanan ko parin kung bakit nya ako iniwan.

Nag palandi kasi ako eh.

Nag paakit ako sa Ibang babae.

Tangina.

I hate myself.

I hate my life.

AGHHH! 

"Son, your tita imee told me na meron daw letter si cassy para sayo" saad ni mom kaya napatingin ako sakanya

"Nasaan mom? Give it to me"

"Anak, wala sa akin na sa kwarto mo daw"

Nag-lakad ako paakyat nang hagdan at pumasok sa kwarto ko.

May nakita akong isang puting papel sa ibabaw ng lamesa.

Kinuha ko ito at umupo sa hignaan ko.

I took a deep breath bago ako magsimulang magbasa.

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My love,

You have no idea how emotionally draining it is for me to write this letter. Nevertheless, I cannot deny the fact that I shared some of the most wonderful moments of my life with you. Remember when we went to paoay church, didn't I tell you that I wanted us to get married there? When we went to bangui windmills I was so happy to be with you there, when you proposed to me I couldn’t believe you knelt in front of me. The joy you brought me was unlike anything I had ever experienced from any other man, and it came at a time when I needed it most. You brought out my best qualities simply by being yourself.

For a long time, we were in love, and a tiny section of my core will always remember that love. However, I eventually realized that love does not conquer all without equal investment from both of us.

Love isn’t something we give or receive, it’s something we nurture and grow, a bond that can only be formed between two people when it comes from the heart. Unfortunately, we could not nurture the love, and our connection is broken beyond repair.

Worthlessness and inadequacy for the past few months, and a relationship that doesn’t contribute to our growth is something we should let go of.

I finally realized we’re not right for each other, and we won’t be happy together. I’m finally going to get off this roller coaster. I am truly sorry for the pain that this breakup will cause you.

We all have different desires, and this is too much to overlook. It’s better that we split up now and learn to live without each other than continue together because all of this will eventually end.

I’ll always remember our time together as one of the most memorable periods of my life. I hope you will forgive me and understand that my departure is for your children's good. I’ve enjoyed our time together and am grateful for everything you’ve done for me.

Sorry if I gave up so easily. You hurt me sandro, and i don't want to be hurt again.

Our relationship is no longer working, and it is causing us more pain than joy. It is high time we both move on with our lives.

Breaking up with you is not something I ever imagined myself doing, but I need to start putting myself first.

I pray for you to be happy from the bottom of my heart. I only want the best for you, and I know I’ll never be able to provide it. I never intended for things to turn out this way, and I will always wish you well in life.

I still love you, but we can't be anymore.

I'm so sorry, mahal ko. 

Lovingly yours,

Cassandra.

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I cried while reading the letter.

I can't accept the fact that you really left me.

Ang sakit, sobrang sakit. 

I made a mistake, and i regret it, I really do.

You are my strength, yet you are angry with me. I feel very weak and exposed.

I don't know whether you will come back or not.

I only know that my eyes will look for you waiting on my windows.

You are leaving for all good, i won't stop you.

When you will return you will see me standing at the same point waiting for you.

Mahal, always remember there will always be a man waiting for you and he loves you a lot.

I'll be right here waiting for you. I will survive holding on to our precious memories.

I will desperately wait for you to come back and create more memories. 

But I hope you will forgive me for what I have done to you.

Take your time, don't worry. I'll wait forever, if that is what it'll take for you to forgive me.

I love you, mahal ko.......