~Alphadog Family~

97

I stayed in bed till late that day, watching PLL.
Knock knock knock
"Come in," I shouted and Leo came through the door smiling sympathetically.
"You alright princess?" He said and came to sit down by me.
"Mm" I mumbled and wiped my cheek with a tissue.
He looked at me with a raised eyebrow but just left it at that.
I stared blankly for a couple of minutes, ignoring everything.
I shook my head and tears started pouring from my eyes.
"No. And this time im going to be honest with you, with everyone," I said crying. "I hate myself. They haven't stopped, because they won't stop. I haven't stopped either, I can't and won't stop," I said, rolling up my sleeves, my hands trembling, to show cuts covering my wrist," im not okay. I want to die. They say they're here for me, but they join the crowd as quick as lighting. I fake a smile everyday. I wake up thinking, 'not again' and it happens everyday, yet I put on a smile and everyone thinks im okay. But im not. Im fed up of having to fake that im okay, for once I actually want to be okay, like for real" I said, looking at my feet. I felt my face going red and my heart was pounding.
"Its okay. I understand" Leo said, quietly, interlocking his fingers with mine.
"You don't though. No-one does. Im just alon-" I started, but I felt Leos grip loosen in my hands.
He looked me straight in the eyes. His nutella eyes so walm and calming. "Its all going to be fine, we'll do this together." He said smiling. He let go of my wrist and pulled off his hoodie.
"They will stop, we just have to stand up to them." He said.
"They do it to everyone Mia, we just have to stay stong" he said, pulling up his shirt to reveal thick scars.
"I'll be with you every step of the way, I love you" he said, hugging me tight, as I felt his tears tickle my neck.
"Ditto," I said wiping away my tears and smiling at him.