~Alphadog Family~

126

I started crying thinking about it in my head. I started panicking, but took a deep breath and managed to get myself up from the sofa. I brushed my hair back, sighed deeply, and got myself a piece of paper.
I walked over to the kitchen table, my hands trembling, tears rolling down my cheek.
This is it. Theres no going back.
I took a breath, put pen to paper and began writing.

'Dear Ryan.
So. This is it. This is happening. Before the thought even crosses your mind, no this isn't your fault. Its all mine. I am a mistake; I was never meant to be born. Im a hurricane, I crash into people's lives and wreck everything. So before I wreck everyone, its time for me to go.
I love you. Don't you ever, ever forget that. Your my best friend. You've saved my life. Your the best medicine I could ever have. Im going to miss you. But this is the right thing for me to do. Im so thankful for everything you have done for me. And most of all, introducing me to Music. You might be a nucence and a right div, but I haven't told you lately that I love you. Your the only reason that im not afraid to try anything.
So I guess this is a goodbye. There is s better place. I'll see you sometime.
Lots of love, your sister,
Mia x'

I finished the 'x' and smiled. I cried to myself but shook it off.
I felt my knees go weak as I walked to the stairs.
I grabbed the paper in my hand and set it carefully on the stairs.
I crawled my way upstairs, my whole body shaking.
I managed to get into the bathroom and pulled myself up to sit on the edge of the bath. The bottle of pills sat staring at me.
I took a deep breath and opened the lid.
1 pill.
2 pills.
4 pills.
8 pills.
10 pills.
15 pills.
25 pills.
50 small pills sat staring up at me in my hand.

My hand was shaking, but I sighed and they all went into my mouth.
"Im sorry for everything" I said as I swallowed the tablets.

Slowly,Everything was black after that.