~Alphadog Family~

50

"MIA LET ME IN!" I heard Charlie shout. I didn't reply. "MIA YOU NEED TO LET ME IN NOW" he shouted again. "No. Go away charlie" I tried shouting but my voice was overtaken by crackles of crys. He started banging the door. "MIA LET ME IN OR ILL HAVE TO GET BLAIR" He shouted pounding on the door. I looked up. "Go tell the world- noone cares about me." I cried.

"Mia. Its not like that.... Leo loves you. Ryan loves you... we all love you" Charlie said and stopped banging on the door. "No. You don't" I said. I saw something in the corner of my eye and slowly got up to see it. I picked it up and held it between my two trembling hands. " No mia, " I thought as my shakey hand pressed it down hard on my skin. I screwed my face up tight and quickly pulled it across my arm. I didn't feel anything. I sighed and slowly opened my eyes. All I saw was red blood. I smiled a little bit and pressed it down hard onto my skin- just under the last cuts. I screwed up my face and pulled away one last time. I smiled again at the sight of the blood trickling down my arm into the sink.

"MIA LET ME IN NOW" I heard and jumped , dropping the bloody razor on the floor.

Then it hit me; and my whole body was filled with fear ; I have nothing to cover them up. I wouldn't think about packing hoodies on holiday to Tenereif. All I had were vest tops, crop tops and bikinis. The door barged open and Charlie fell to the floor. He got back up and his eyes widened at the sight of the blood in the sink. Oh Shit, I'd forgotten to clear it up. "No mia... no no" Charlie said shaking his head, he looked down to see the razor and started to cry. "Im sorry Charlie" I said crying again. He started tugging on my crossed arms. But I tenced so he couldn't move my arm. "Ca-an I-I s-ee" He sniffed between crys. I hesitated but finally pulled my arm away to let him see. His eyes widened and filled up with tears. He ran his finger tip over thrm and I winced before pulling my arm back. "Mia. No" he whispered crying and pulling me into a hug. "Charlie... I need a hoodie..." I cried into his biceps. "Leo has one - I saw it yesterday. Go and ask him now... I need to clean myself up." He cried and smiled a little. Wow- it had to be Leos, but I was willing to face him. I hugged Charlie and headed for their room, closing the bathroom door behind me .