When It Rains

Chapter 15

Previously on 'When it Rains'
     James finally wakes up from his coma ! He rushes straight to the hospital to find Ocean on her way to have a C-section. Ocean struggles to understand her feelings about James's return. And now on to chapter 15..
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Ocean Odega POV

     They didnt put me under anesthesia but they numbed me up pretty good. A few minutes went by before they got the first twin out. The first twin born was Austin. They let me see Austin and then took him off to get cleaned up. He was so beautiful I couldn't stop my tears from running down my face. Since they were already worried about Alaina's heart rate they continued to pull her out as quickly as possible. When they pulled her out she wasn't crying so I started to worry !

Ocean: Why isn't she crying ??
Doctor: I have a code blue, I repeat code blue in OR 7, all hands on deck.
Ocean: Code blue whats a code blue !?
Doctor: We're having our doctors do everything they can, but twin number two isn't breathing. We're trying to bring her back now.
Alaina: Ocean, just breathe.
Ocean: How can I breathe mom, my baby girl isn't breathing !
Alaina: You will breathe because if you don't you're going to bring the bad energy into this room and your baby girl will have no chance. Breathe and pray and bring the good energy into the room.
Ocean: Okay,  Im breathing.

     As I'm sitting there breathing and trying to calm down, listening to my mothers commands, I can't help but to worry about my baby. It's as if god himself heard my cries because as soon as I started crying again so did she. They brought my baby to life and I couldn't be happier. Alaina is a true miracle baby !  So I decided to incorporate that into her name. Alaina Miracle Smith. It sounds so cliche but believe it or not it fits her. The sound of her cry made me cry even more so Im sitting there, stomach sliced open, listening to my babies crying, sobbing myself. I couldn't ask for a better delivery, because this is my story, and I got what I wanted in the long run, Im healthy, my babies will be healthy, and my babies father is alive and getting better.  My family is finally all on the same page.
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James Smith POV

     As the doctor finishes up with my check up they tell me ill be fine, but they tell my parents to keep a close eye on me for any after effects from my head trauma. They prescribe me pain medicine to take as needed and said my headache and weakness will go away with time, and sent me on my way. Finally. As soon as I left, I rushed to Ocean and the twins, but then I remember I wasn't allowed in the OR. Luckily they had already moved her back into a labor room so I was able to go see my twins. Ocean's mom had came and added my parents to the visitor list so they were also able to come into the room.

James: They are truly beautiful Ocean.
Ocean: They're perfect James, we did that.
James: We sure did.

I didnt want to ruin the mood by talking about the past but I couldn't help but to have the thought on my mind and the question on my heart. Does Ocean forgive me ?

James: Ocean can I talk to you for a moment ?
Ocean: Sure go ahead.
James: Can we talk alone ?

     Our parents understood what we wanted to talk about and they all decided to leave us in the room, just us and the twins.

Ocean: I already know what you want to talk about James and I'm just going to tell you outright that I dont want to be with you. I have to think about the twins now but that doesn't mean I dont have to think about myself. My happiness matters too and if I force myself to forgive you just so we can pretend we're one big happy family ill never forgive myself. We just had two beautiful children and I really didnt want to ruin the mood but I knew the time was coming, so there it is.

     My heart was ripped out of my chest. I didnt even know what to say so I sat there like an idiot not saying a word. It hurts one billion times worse because I know this is all my fault. Why wasn't Ocean good enough for me ? We were happy for so long and I just had to go and mess up the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. Im breaking inside because I know if it weren't for Austin and Alaina we probably wouldn't ever speak again, against my efforts. Im completely broken.

Ocean:  James ? Say something.
James: I dont know what to say Ocean, I think I've said sorry way to much for them to mean anything, but I am truly sorry for breaking our bond Ocean. I really wish I could take it all back but I can't. Im just angry with myself that I messed this up.
Ocean: I believe that you're sorry James but you know how I was raised and who I was raised by. My parents never had to go through any of this so I do believe I deserve better. And who's to say you wont do it again when I go on another vacation ?
James: I wont I promise !
Ocean: But that's just it James, You dont promise. You've promised before and let me down, for me to intentionally put myself through that same kind of hurt again would be insanity.
James: I understand Ocean, I love you forever. I will never find another woman like you. I wont try to make moves on you or anything but I will try to be the best dad I possibly can be, and at least try to show them that I can be a good person after what I did to you. I love you Ocean.
Ocean: You're still their father whether we're together or not, and I'm sure you'll be the greatest dad. You gave me the greatest gifts in the world, ill always love you.
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3 days later..
Ocean Odega POV

     It's time to leave the hospital. Me and James haven't been speaking about what happened, we've just been worrying about the twins and thats it, co parenting, though we havent done much parenting since we just left the hospital. I think James is truly hurt but to be completely honest I'm glad. Im glad he feels the way I felt when he told me he wasn't faithful to me. If you would have told me at the beginning of the school year that id be here with James, not together, co parenting to twins, I would have called you fucking insane. Now that I'm living in this world, though it may seem odd, I feel at peace.
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The end..
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Authors note

    Thank you for reading 'When it rains'.. I know what you're thinking, this is kind of short. I know. Dont worry, I have a sequel coming, but I'm not telling when lol, follow me to find out when 'When the Rain Returns' drops, and be on the lookout on instagram @whoisslayy to find out opportunities to read more of my work, whether on Wattpad or Episode Interactive Stories. Stay tuned for more. If you like my work, share. See you in the next one, and again, thanks for reading 'When it Rains' !!