Yearning for him (boyxboy)

Chapter 40

Trigger warning: The first part would contain humiliation, suicide attempt and extreme abuse. Please skip if something triggers you.

It took me quite a while to write the scenes. Earlier I decided I would simply skip it but thought it would be better to explain why Levi fears those six months with the men. Still I don't feel writing intense abuse scenes even if they are present in my mind. It just feels so wrong. :(

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Levi was undergoing an existential crisis and on one particular incident where he was forced to quench his thirst, he was made to drink another's piss. With no other option, as he was denied water for three days while spending his time under the scorching sun Levi was willing to do anything.

That night he tried to take his life. Luckily for him, he was bound as the goons were passed out drunk but not before using him thoroughly.

So he decided. After constant reminders of his current predicament associated with his past atrocities, he thought it would benefit the world if he left it.

He saw broken beer bottles lying at the feet of the passed out men. Crawling silently, he grabbed one and slit his arm. Intense burning fired up his arm causing him to clench his teeth in pain. However the cut wasn't deep enough to drain his life. Therefore he got ready to slice again.

But the leader groaned at the pounding of his head and squinted his eyes open to drink something before he slept again.

Universe seems to hate Levi so much that it decided to worsen his punishments at any given chance.

Clutching his head, Charlie blinked awake. The moment his sight landed onto the bloodied frozen Levi, he was fully awake and striding towards him in fear. If something had happened to this puny man, his lover would not only have his head but make sure he is tortured exponentially to beg for his death.

"You bastard!"

All the men scrambled to their feet hearing their leaders screams. Levi had done a great mistake. He should have known.

Known that these thugs were immune to alcohol. Nothing could affect these monsters.

He squealed in fear as he dropped the weapon and scrambled on the floor till his back hit the wall.

Charlie's strides never paused, going straight to the shaking man, lifting him up by his hair.

"Get me the tape and ropes. This bastard has the guts to take his life. Huh? Do you think you own anything to take it away?"

He repeatedly slapped him till blood flowed freely from his cut lips.

"You wanted to die right? Boys why don't we show what happens when he decides to take his life?"

"N-no. S-sorry. P-please lea-leave me....... Sorry!"

Levi was dragged to the center of the cluttered room and a noose was tied around his neck. Charlie did a quick work of stopping the blood flow with the tape while bound his hands behind his back at a painful angle. As usual he elbows and wrists were tied together making Levi scream in pain when it applied pressure onto the wound. Blood dripped some more before clotting.

But the goons had began tying the noose to the hook in the ceilings pulling him up as he started to choke. When he was mid-air, gasping and choking, small relief was made available to him by placing a stool beneath his toes. Nevertheless he couldn't stand fully on his feet but rather only on tippy toes.