𝘽𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝘽𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙖 𝙉𝙤𝙫𝙖: 𝗕.𝗘 𝗜𝗠𝗔𝗚𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗦

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𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙽𝚃: 𝟻𝟶𝟾
𝙳𝙸𝚂𝙲𝙻𝙰𝙸𝙼𝙴𝚁: 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝙶𝙽𝙰𝙽𝙲𝚈 𝙻𝙾𝚂𝚂 [𝚂𝚃𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙱𝙸𝚁𝚃𝙷]
𝚁𝙴𝚀𝚄𝙴𝚂𝚃 𝙱𝚈: Billiesbish4ever 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞!
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𝚈/𝙽 𝙿•𝙾•𝚅

The words no mother wants to hear, those sick words that can tear anyone's heart apart, loud cry's from me filled the room, all I feel is pain, not from giving birth to my child, it's from giving birth to my lifeless child, my baby, 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑙

Days went by and I couldn't sleep or eat, my wife Billie, who is staying so strong, keeps trying her best to make sure I recover from this, but I just can't feel anything anymore

𝙱𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙴'𝚂 𝙿•𝙾•𝚅

I check the clock once again [𝟮:𝟰𝟲 𝗽𝗺], I go check on my wife whose body lays on the bed, quiet sobs leaving her lips

I climb on the bed and pull her in, rubbing her back for comfort as her cries get louder, soon enough it stops, and I hear small snores indicating she fell asleep, I don't move not wanting to wake her up knowing this is probably the only time she'll get some sleep

I close my eyes trying to stop the tears filling up from falling, I've been trying to stay strong but the more I do, the more I break down, as much as I try to not breakdown I can't help but cry over this situation

We were supposed to be a family

𝚈/𝙽 𝙿•𝙾•𝚅

As I go into a light slumber, I hear sniffles and small sobs, I look up at Billie seeing her crying, my heart breaks even more, she's been so strong and I haven't even taken her feelings into consideration

I release from her hold startling her, I bring her into my arms, massaging her scalp as she cry's

" 𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝗯𝗮𝗯𝘆, 𝗜 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 " I whisper holding her tighter. Right now all we need is each other, to grieve and heal

Hearing her cries of pain made me get emotional once again " 𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗼 𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝗬/𝗻 " Billie cried

I grab her chin to look at me, those blue eyes filled with tears

" 𝗜𝘁,𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲, 𝗶𝘁,𝘀 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲,𝘀, 𝘄𝗲,𝘃𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗲,𝗿𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝗜 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲 " With a weak nod, she pulls us down further onto the bed, pulling the blanket over us we continue holding each other letting our emotions out instead of suppressing them, it didn't take us to long for our eyes to get heavy, finally giving up we gave into sleep dreaming of what was supposed to be ours

It's gonna be a long journey of healing and acceptance but as long as we have us, we'll work through it together

𝙰𝚄𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚁'𝚂 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙴 ✍︎︎
ʜᴇʏ ʟᴜᴠs, ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴀ sᴇɴsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴛᴏᴘɪᴄ ʙᴜᴛ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴅᴇᴀʟᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ sɪᴍɪʟᴀʀ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜɪs ɪ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ʜᴇᴀʟ, ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛs, ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴀᴍᴀᴢɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴘʀᴏᴜᴅ ᴏꜰ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴍᴘʟɪsʜᴍᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀʟɪɴɢ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇss, ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ