𝘽𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝘽𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙖 𝙉𝙤𝙫𝙖: 𝗕.𝗘 𝗜𝗠𝗔𝗚𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗦

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|𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚅𝙸𝙴𝚆| 𝙱𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚎'𝚜 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚛.

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𝚈/𝙽 𝙿•𝙾•𝚅
I walked into my home after a long rough day, sighing as I settled into the couch not even attempting to go upstairs into my room. Switching the TV on for some background noise, I shut my eyes taking in today.

Unfortunately good things never last, my brief silence was rudely interrupted by my ringing phone; checking the caller ID, I bit my lip not wanting to answer, not wanting to face the main reason why today has been the day it is. So I declined in hopes that she would take the hint and not call again, but, I know her, she will call again, and again, and again until I answer, and she knows I'll answer.

And so she does, and of course, I answer.

" 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗽 " I begged

" 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗹 𝘄𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗬/𝗡 " She demanded

" 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁. "

" 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘂𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 "

I sighed knowing arguing back and forth wasn't gonna solve anything.

" 𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝗜'𝗺 𝗮𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 "

" 𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗯𝘂𝘁... "

" 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁? "

" 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝘂𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀, 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 "

" 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲, 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 "

" 𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗜'𝗺 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲, 𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 "

" 𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄, 𝗯𝘆𝗲 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 "

" 𝗕𝘆𝗲... " her voice cracking as she ended the call

I don't mean to make her cry, it's just all too much right now; I just need to take a shower, get into some comfy pajamas, and rest.

Finally building up the strength to walk up to my bedroom, I do my night routine anticipating the cozy feeling of my bed. As I slipped into the sheets, the blanket warmed my cold body; I shut my lamp off resting my head on my pillow closing my eyes in hopes that I'll fall asleep fast. But not with her on my mind, I can't sleep when all I think about is her.

Rolling my eyes I sit up against my headboard switching my lamp back on. For so long Billie and I had a close friendship. Friends, that's all we've ever been but ever since last night when she kissed me, I don't know what to feel. In reality, my mind has been stuck on her for so long, long before that kiss. She's everything I want but she's also one of the brightest lights of my life and I'm scared. I'm scared that if we try it might not work out, I'll lose her forever.

Although that fear lives within me, my need and attraction for her grows deeper every second and she and I both know that I need to woman up and take what fate brings me, no matter what happens. I grab my phone off the nightstand ringing her number despite the late hour of the night.

" 𝗛𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼? "

" 𝗛𝗲𝘆... " Was all I could mutter

" ...𝗜-𝗶𝘀 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆? " She questioned

" 𝗬𝗲𝗮𝗵, 𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙖, 𝘄𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 " I replied

" 𝗪𝗲 𝗱𝗼. 𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸? "

" 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘀𝗼 "

" 𝗜'𝗺 𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘆. "

" 𝙒𝙝𝙖- 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲?! "

" 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲, 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲 "

" 𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗳𝘂𝗹 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆? "

" 𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲, 𝗶'𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗼𝗻 " And with that, she hung up

I waited on my bed staring into space until my doorbell rang, walking down the stairs towards my door I let out a deep breath before opening the door revealing a tired Billie standing on my front porch.

Without any exchange of words, she comes in sitting on my couch, I slowly make my way towards her fiddling with my fingers nervously not knowing what to say. She pats the space next to her signaling me to sit down.

"𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝗺𝗲, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗲" She said breaking the silence between us

"𝗜-...𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲, 𝗜 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂" I truthfully admitted

"𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗳?" she raised an eyebrow questioningly as she took my hand rubbing soft circles, easing my nerves

"...𝗟𝗼𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂"

I looked down staring at my leg too scared to face her until I felt her place a hand under my chin bringing my gaze to her "𝗜'𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲, 𝗻𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗻𝘀, 𝗜'𝗹𝗹 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲"

I feel her body lean into mine slowly, I wanna look away but even then my body naturally leans into hers.

"𝗜 𝘄𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗸𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼"

"𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼"

Breaking the space between she presses her soft lips on mine, passionately taking each other in like a long-awaited kiss. This felt right, all that fear that I once had gone away, it was just us; perfectly pieced together like a puzzle and it felt so good.

Pulling away, we catch our breaths but our gaze never left each other "𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲"

"𝗠𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝗼, 𝗜 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲"

A bright smile played upon my lips as I leaned into her hold. Maybe it will all work out.

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