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𝚈/𝙽 𝙿•𝙾•𝚅

We enter the event full of people, instantly I get nervous and sweaty, I try my best to keep my composure hoping no one would notice

Billie grabs my hand as she leads the way through the crowd of people, we stop saying hi to a few occasionally. Finally making it to the empty table they assigned us we sit down and talk a little

It wasn't really a party nor was it an award show, I actually have no clue what it is, I just tagged along with Billie as her plus one but now I'm just regretting my decision, there was a bunch of big named celebrities here that were ten thousand times better than me which was intimidating

Billie noticed my sense of uncomfortableness and took my hand into hers

" 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝗟𝘂𝘃? " She asked sympathetically

" 𝗬𝗲𝗮𝗵 𝗜'𝗺 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 " I said sending her a small smile

Billie knew I got nervous when it comes to big crowds, just the thought of a bunch of people staring and judging scared the hell out of me, I honestly don't know how Billie handles all that

" 𝗜𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲,
𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆? " She spoke softly but stern

" 𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 " I said even though I know I wasn't telling the truth, I didn't wanna ruin this event for her

While having small talk at the table I actually felt alright, I was still a little nervous but knowing Billies here was making me feel better, that was until a few people approached the table, all the attention was on Billie, which I didn't care because I am too nervous to talk to random celebrities, I might embarrass myself

More minutes went by and more people approached the table, my anxiety was at an all-time high and I started to get shaky, I quickly get up from my chair, trying to find the nearest bathroom, thankfully, it was only a one-person bathroom so I know nobody would disturb or hear me

Walking in, I lock the door putting my back against it, sliding down, I felt like I was losing air making me gasp for air, feeling overwhelmed my eyes start tearing up. I felt scared even though this has happened many times before but each time it feels like your dying

I hear a knock on the door and I try my best to ignore it, right now only focusing on trying to calm myself, which wasnt working so good

" 𝗬/𝗻 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 " I hear on the other side of the door

Not being able to stand up, I reached my hand up to the doorknob to unlock it, after a few seconds Billie opens the door closing it quickly to see the horific state I was in

She crouches down to my level pulling me into her hold

" 𝗕𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵 " I cry

" 𝗬𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲, 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗰𝗵 𝗺𝘆 𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴'𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗲, 𝗜 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲 " I try my best and do as she says, still not being able to calm myself

Crying for her to help me, Billie placed a hand under my chin and brought my gaze to her. Feeling a little more relaxed, my breathing steadies a little, we do some breathing exercises that usually help me in these situations. I steady my breathing still crying from being overwhelmed by the situation, she pulls me in holding me tightly as she whispers encouraging words in my ear

A few minutes pass and I calmed down, now exhausted, we get up leaving the bathroom, walking back to our table to grab our belongings, saying bye to the people she was talking to, we make our way to the car and drive back home

The drive was silent, just soft music playing in the background from the radio

" 𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲? " Billie asked

I looked down fidgeting with my fingers

" 𝗜 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 " I spoke softly

" 𝗬/𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗲 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱'𝘃𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝗮𝗱𝗹𝘆 𝗶𝗳 𝗜 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗳𝗲 " She connected our hands caressing mine with her thumb

" 𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝘆, 𝗜 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗜'𝗹𝗹 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂
𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 " She focuses back on the road kissing my hands as i think about how I truly love this girl with all my heart

𝙰𝚄𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚁'𝚂 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙴 ✍︎︎
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