Daryl's Fallen(TWD fan fiction/Daryl Dixon)

Chapter 17

Daryl's pov

Trying to be the hero she turned around and sprinted. She pushed her sister and the kid practically went flyin. I caught Lily's eye, her beautiful emerald eye. I saw the tears slide down her pale face as she ran for her life. All I wanted to do was wipe her tears away and feel her arms wrap around me.

I was stuck in place as i watched her, the determination on her face to survive. That guy got out his gun and aimed, I wanted to shout but I couldn't. She ran through the gate and it was nearly closed but the bullet went through her, just near her heart and she went crashin to the ground.
I stood still not knowing what to do, we all did, it was like Beth all over again.It happened so fast. I felt my eyes well up. I let out a cry of anger, something not human. I saw red as I grabbed my gun and aimed it at the stupid man and shot him. All hell broke loose as his men started to climb the fence but we shot them down. In less than a minute they were down and we turned our attention to Lily who laid there. Penny by her side blubberin away. Maggie stumbled forwards as she came out the house and collapsed to the ground as she saw her friend there. Rick didn't say anything but wiped away a tear. Everyone began to file out to see what was left of her. A circle formed around her, around her beautiful body and I realised she was gone. I decided that I could move and I got to her and collapsed onto my knees, my crossbow cluttering onto the ground.
Penny's tears fell to the ground as I picked up Lily and made her face me. Her eyes open not looking at anything, the life was completely gone. Blood soaked through her top. She was cold, pale as lead.
I brook down and cried uncontrollably as I pulled her head up and rocked her back and forth and put my lips to her cool head.

I wanted to feel her touch my arm, tell me she was okay.

"No, no no..." is all I can manage to say. My tears falling onto her pale icy cold skin.

I wanted her to kiss me, her soft lips on mine. I wanted her to thread her fingers through my hair.

"Please god no..." I spoke louder. I kissed her head as I stroked her blood soaked blonde hair.

I wanted that night again. I wanted to hear her moan my name; cuddle, kiss and drive me crazy.

"Don't fuckin do this, please not after everythin." I brought her closer towards me, her body as light as a feather as I brought her face up to my neck wanting to feel her hot breath.

I wanted to hear her laugh. I wanted to see that sparkle in her eye. I wanted her to kiss my forehead and tell me that she was okay.

"God dammit fuck no!" I couldn't help but scream, cry and bring out all those emotions. My voice raspy as the tears took control. I placed my lips on her cool forehead and rocked her back and forth again. Regret filled my mind, I should of told her I love her, I should of told her...

I wanted her. I wanted that moment. Her on my lap, the way she nuzzled her head into my neck, her hot breath drivin me crazy.

"I didn't get to say goodbye." I mumble against her forehead.

I wanted to see her. I wanted her to be by my side forever, she wasn't supposed to leave me. I wanted to be with her...
Rick knelt beside me and closed her emerald eyes shut. I looked at him. My face scrunched up again as I felt tears in my eyes. I saw he was cryin too. I wrapped one arm around my brother, while the other held Lily. He slapped me on the back and gave me a sad smile.

I didn't know what happened next but it was suddenly night. I sat there cryin muffled into her blonde hair. Her sister was taken away long ago by Maggie and I was left in the street surrounded by her blood.

"You were't supposed to leave me yet Lil, We were supposed to make it together through this shit hole." I mumbled into her ear kissing that soft spot that always made her shiver. I pull back and look at her again.
"Daryl." I didn't turn but I knew it was Rick and Carol.
"You think you can manage something to eat sweetie?" Carol asked patronisingly as I stroked Lily's hair, I was holdin her closer to me, her head was on my lap and she looked like a doll.
"Daryl, I hate to say it but she's gonna turn soon and we really should do something about it..."
"Leave me alone." I managed to growl.
"It won't be fair on her, she wouldn't of wanted to turn into a walker..." Rick began and I held her closer not looking at anything but her. They weren't gonna take her away from me. I would kill them if they did that. Blow their fuckin brains out. No one loved her like i did, no one.
"Screw you, Piss off and leave me be." I croaked and I heard them sigh and leave. I looked up at the sky at the starry night and hoped that Lily was looking down at me.
"No such thin' as heaven." I muttered to myself and continued stroking her hair. Hours pass like days and Carol came out again. She gave me a blanket, instead of usin it I wrapped Lily up in it, hoping she wouldn't get cold. Lily hated the cold.
"I know we weren't close but I didn't want this at all." Carol whispered as I closed my eyes and held Lily closer.
"I keep on thinkin it's my fault."
"Why?"
"I should of told her I loved her, I shouldn't have been such a dick in the beginning..."
"Daryl this is not your fault it's that New Governor guy. She died a hero, she saved her sisters life. All of ours lives just like Beth did with Noah" Carol touched my shoulder and i let her. "Yeah and Noah's dead too." I snapped.
"They both saved us."
"They both ended up waistin their fuckin lives, both tryin to be a hero. That kid is gonna die." I cursed I was angry all of sudden at her for leaving me, how could she put her life on the line like that? She couldn't leave me like this.
"How's the kid?" I managed to ask.
"The girl, she's a wreck but Maggie's taking care of it."
I kept on thinkin bout what Lily said before she saved Penny when she whispered.
"If anything happens look after her for me." I thought of her soft voice. She knew she was gonna die, saving Penny was cos she couldn't do it before and now she could and die a hero. Stupid son of a bitch. I knew one thing though that I would have vengeance, if any of that Governors people were out there i would kill em.
"I want her to be buried." I whispered not looking at anythin but her, I began brushin her hair away from her eyes.
"No shooting, no nothin. Just want her buried like a normal being."
"But she will turn?"
"She didn't the first time and no one's gonna shoot her, ever, again." I growled and Carol nodded.
"I will inform the Father and we will get something ready for her."

Mornin' came and I still sat there. She had gotten colder but her cheeks had their rosiness back in them.
"We are ready Daryl." Rick told me and I picked her up in my arms and I couldn't look at her, I loved her and she had left me and I never got to tell her that. I carried her close and stopped when i saw the stretcher and the blanket that was going to be placed over her. I took a shaky breath and paused. Rick touched my shoulder and gave me a pitted look. I placed her on the stretcher and placed one last kiss on her lips, a single tear running from my eye .I wiped it away and turned around and i was shocked when saw how many people had shown up. Everyone, everyone in Alexandria had shown up.
"What are all you doin her?" I growled at them.
"We came to morn, Lily was a nice girl she didn't deserve this." an old lady spoke. Lily was probably real nice to her, Lily liked to make people happy. We all walked out the gate together as I carried the stretcher with help from some folks. It was a dark loud rainy day, it was pissin down. We walked to the area where a tree was. A hole was in the ground and we gently lowered her in there. A cross was placed and I laid her bow and arrow next to it.

"We are here to morn the loss of a very dear friend, Lily Brokeback. At 21 years of age she sacrificed herself for all our lives." Father began and I stood there as the rain began to drizzle, hitting me. I stood alone away from the others. I knew something about me was untouchable so no one came near me at all.
Her sister began to cry again as Maggie held her close she was only thirteen and looked young for her age too.
"Lord above shall know of her loyalty and bravery and will grant her in heaven, we will now have a minutes silence. " they were all silent I saw walkers in the distance.
"Can't they just let us fuckin morn?" I growled breakin the silence. I was about to get out the gun I rarely used but Rick grabbed my wrist and shook his head. I pulled away from him and he sighed stepped away.
"Penny would you like to say a few words?" Father asked and Penny nodded and went to the cross and put a old teddy in front of it.
"You were the best sister I ever could have, you stayed with me when you thought I was dying so I will do the same for you. You saved me in the car when we overturned, you saved me when we were in terminus and you saved me now. I'm sorry I came so late, I'm sorry i never saved you..." her sister broke down in to tears and there wasn't a dry eye anywhere...except me.
"Daryl?"The Father asked and people gave him a look almost to say that's a bad idea.
I went up to her cross and lay my hand on it.
"Lily was a sweet gal, at first I thought she was weak, not gonna survive. We tried to find Alexandria together and got close to her on the way. I couldn't even admit my feelins to her then. I was a dick to her. In the safe house I left her to nearly be killed cos I was too god damn selfish..."
"Daryl you don't have to..."
"Let me finish Rick. She forgave me, son of a bitch forgave me...and I lost her again. I lost her to the wolves and when she returned I never got to tell her I loved her. The two weeks she was back were the best fuckin weeks of my stupid ass life. I spent that morning with her on my lap and ten minutes later she was dead on the road. Gone...you died a hero and I'm sorry Lil, shit I'm sorry I didn't tell you I loved you. I'm sorry that I didn't protect you but I will keep your promise. I will make sure nothing hurts her like they hurt you..." I tapped the cross once more before standing back and they put the dirt in and everyone left except Penny who stayed.
We both looked down at the mound.
"She told you to look after me didn't she, she knew she was gonna die." the rain started to pick up and I looked at the kid. The tiny thirteen year old had probably been through hell. To see her own sister killed in front of her was tough on her.
"It was your fault, if you didn't turn up she would of survived." I snapped lookin at the cross.
"You don't think I don't know that?" Penny raised her brow cryin again.
"I don't know why she ever fell for an insensitive guy like you." Penny turned on her heals and began to run back.
"Wait!" I shouted and ran after her, the girl was really fast.
I managed to catch her and she was sniffling, unlike Lily's who had an unattractive cry.
This kid looked so lost and scared and the rain pelted down harder, for some odd reason she wrapped her tiny little arms around me. Something about the Brokeback's obviously made them feel like they could trust me.
But I hugged her back and she was short, just coming above my waist. I patted her hair and spoke.
"I know kid, we both lost a lot." And the rain pelted a lot harder washing away the tears and blood...