Just Friends

23

Meghan's POV:
"Is everything okay? You sounded upset on the phone?" I asked Connor when he opened the door.

"Yeah everything fine. I just need to talk to you about something." Connor replied.

I walked in and we went up to his room since his mom was watching tv in the family room.

"So what's up?" I asked nervously. I was afraid that he was going to break up with me because since Valentine's Day I've been worried Madison told him about what I said; still being in love with Luke.

If I'm not dating Connor, I'm afraid I'll end up with Luke and end up getting hurt again.

Or maybe it's because I haven't said I love you back and we've been dating for almost six months.

"So I've been putting this off for a really long time-" already not off to a great start." But I think you and I should discuss it."

I nodded and took a seat in the desk chair.

"So, as you know I'm graduating soon and I still haven't decided on a college." He said. I did a double take when I heard him.

"I forgot you haven't committed yet." I mumbled to myself, loud enough for him to hear.

"Yeah, So a few universities have offered for me to play football for them but I don't want to leave and go across the country if you and I have a future together." Connor explained.

"How far across the country?" I asked.

"Norte Dame, Indiana, Louisiana State, And Ohio State." He answered." One school in the state of California offered me to play for them but it's still a two hour drive up to Stanford."

I didn't say anything. I couldn't stop thinking about if he's asking me to choose what school he goes to because I know nothing about these teams.

"If you think we have a future together I need you to tell me now because if we do, I'll stay here for school. I don't want to lose you to someone else if I go out of state." Connor said as he took my hands into his.

I looked him in the eye and remained silent.

"Meghan I love you so much please say something."

My mind was telling me to break up with him now because you don't see a future with him, never have. Unfortunately you still hope for one with Luke.

"I-I don't know." I mumbled after a minute of silence." I think you should go where you want to go. If you leave the state we can make it work." No, dump him.

"Yeah but what if-"

"What if what? Are you afraid I'll go back to Luke? Because I won't. I'm with you and i only have one year left and maybe I'll get accepted to one of those schools and we can both be there and start our life early."

"Meghan, you know I'm afraid of that. Let's be honest with ourselves, you're still obviously hung up on Luke and he still loves you. If I'm gone, he's going to try and make a move and without me you'll get roped into it." He said.

"I'm not hung up on him. I'll tell you what I told him; if I was still in love with him I wouldn't be with you or anyone for that matter. He hurt me bad enough to make me never want to be with him again." I replied." Go wherever you want."

"Fine then I want to go to Stanford." Connor exclaimed." I'll call admissions and tell them I accepted their offer." He stood up and opened his bedroom door for me to leave. It was obvious he didn't believe me but he was still willing to date me.

"I hope you know that Luke is done trying and if somehow you staying in Cali doesn't work, don't say I kept you here because you made this choice yourself." With that I walked out and down to the front door.

"I'll pick you up tomorrow for school." Connor hollered as I walked down the driveway to my car.

Why didn't I dump him already? It's not fair to either of us especially not him. I guess I'm more afraid to go back to luke then I thought.