Collection of She-ra stories! #oneshots

How do I deal . . . . Catradora

They keep telling me that things are better and back to normal, but that's not how I feel. Every day I wake up scared and nervous. I look around corners, under the bed and knock on wood. 

What I went through on Prime's space ship had a deeper impact on me than I thought. I keep telling Adora and Glimmer that I'm fine. The reality is that my mind is spinning wild and crazy thoughts. I know it's been almost two years, but I feel like it was all seconds ago. 

I keep hearing Bow's squeaky voice saying cheer up and smile more. UGH! I just want him to stop saying that. And if I do say it will he know the truth? I play it cool when I'm losing my mind. 

I fake things constantly to avoid more talk. I hate telling people how I feel. ICK. GROSS. 

Sure I tell Adora I love her, but that's different. 

I stay on surface answers, yes, okay, great, fine. Verbally going any deeper would just make me feel sick. Being emotional in the past has only made things worse. It made me vulnerable and dare I say - weak. 

I shake just even thinking about this. 

Being forced into cutting my hair was traumatizing enough. Then the mind zapping was cruel. Not being in control was torture. That chip that was on my neck, I can still feel it sometimes. 

How do I deal with all of this when I don't want people knowing how broken I still am. I push them all away when I actually want them to stay. 

I know all of this is taking a toll on my sanity. I know I don't have many options either. 

It was a week later when I was curled in a ball on my bed. I'd been crying. I heard the door to our bedroom shut and Adora came to sit beside me. 

"How are you?" Adora asked. She knew something was wrong. She'd known for a while now. 

I sat up and silently turned to her. 

Adora gasped in shock. "What did you do?"  She shouted. 

I looked down. "Is it bleeding?" I asked, knowing there was a long scratch mark on my neck. Yeah I had done it to myself. 

"Yeah, I'll get some stuff to clean you up." 

"Adora." My voice was tight from feeling so much. "I need help." 

Adora leaned in and kissed me on the forehead. "I know and we will get that for you." She left and came back in two minutes with all kinds of medical stuff from the bathroom down the hall.

"Thanks." I weakly said to her as she was fixing my wound. I wasn't sure how deep the cut was. "The inside of me is so messed up. I don't know what to do." 

Adora cracked a smile. "Cake is good. It'll help a tiny bit. Then we'll talk with Glimmer and all to find someone. There has to be a therapist or other doctor that can help you out." 

"I know I can only save myself if I want to." I told her honestly. "I do want to. I want to have a future with you." And now I was crying. 

"I love you, Catra. We will deal with this together. Help each other too. That whole time was rough on me as well. I wasn't chipped, but still I did my part to save Etheria. I'm going through a lot too. Everyone is in some way. You are not alone. I'm right here." 

I thought of myself too much. And realized it wasn't just me that was physically and mentally struggling daily. "Thanks, I love you too." I said and kissed her lips once.  

We kissed a few more times and layed in each others arms.

I barely slept, but I tried, only to have nightmares. I saw scenes in my head. The Ice queen putting up more ice spikes around her kingdom. Alone with her mind weaving in random scary thoughts. Some sad and some morbid. She pictured the white snow caked in blood.