OSL2: Shattered Heart of Mistakes

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Chapter 12.

Napamulat ako ng mata. Where am I? Everything is white but I am very sure that this isn't a hospital. I looked at myself, I don't see any blood. Maybe I'm just imagining things. Vehicle? lol wtf.

I was about to stand up when a boy appeared. "Hello!" The boy said. Napatingin ako sa bata, I can't help but to smile. I didn't even know why I smiled but I feel like smiling.

"Hi." I greeted him. In just a snap, parang wala akong problema. It felt like I found my inner peace, I took a deep breath. Just this once, Samantha. You feel relaxed and calm right? Then be calm.

The boy smiled at me. "Don't think too much. Can I ask you a favor, Madame?" He asked. Why not? I nod. Lumapit siya ng kaunti saakin, nagulat ako pero napangiti ako ng umupo siya sa lap ko.

"Can you focus on me first? Forget about your problems just now." He said. I didn't replied, paano niya nalaman na may problema ako? I may not respond but my heart did. Para ngang kami lang talaga ang magkasama.

Nagulat ako sa sarili ko but I found myself brushing my hand into this little guy's hair. "That tickles a little, but I like it." He said. I chuckled, he's like..napatigil ako. Para siyang si Dave, nakikiliti tuwing ginagawa ko to. I shook my head, he requested me to stop over thinking just this once.

"Does it?" I smiled. Tumango naman siya. "Madame, What's your name?" Oh yeah, speaking of names. "I am Samantha, you can call me--" I didn't finished when he spoke already. "Can I call you Mom?" I was stunned for a second when he asked that, I just found myself nodding.

Why does it feels so right? Ang saya sa tenga ng boses niya. Why am I even feeling this way? "How about you, whats your name?" I asked him. I saw his faced saddened. Why is that?

"I don't have one." The boy sadly said. I also felt loneliness. "Why are you crying, Mom?" Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya, I was about to wipe my tears when he wiped it with his finger. Hindi pa man niya naiaalis ang daliri niya sa mukha ko ay agad ko na itong hinawakan.

Mas napaiyak ako sa ginawa ko. "Don't cry. There's no reason for you to cry." He said. No baby, there's a lot of reason why should I cry. I know I told myself that I want to be strong but sometimes, I think I can't.

"There's also a lot of reason why to smile." He said. Bumalik siya sa pagkakaupo sa aking lap. Nakatalikod na ito saakin ngunit naiwan parin akong nakahawak sa pisnge ko na kaninang hinawakan ng daliri niya.

"Mom..There's a lot of problems in this world right? There's a lot of mistakes that have already done. But There's also a lot of ways to correct each mistake. Mom is just like the other humans, so if you think that you have too much problems you might have to lessen them by doing the right thing." How could a little guy.."Nobody said it was easy. Giving up is for the weak, trying and trying is for the strong. Never get tired of doing something that has a good outcome. Pain hurts but will you ever thought of that in the time you already fixed the problem? Pain hurts but success don't."

Napaisip ako sa kanyang sinabi. I was about to speak but he stood up and stood in front of me. Then I saw the people who are really important to me, my family. "Ohh, so that's how Kuya Kris looks like! Look at Ate Georgina, she's pretty! aww, Gregor is such a cutie! Dad is so handsome! So this is my family!" The boy seems so excited.

It may be impossible but I get it. Napakagat ako sa labi ko ng unti unting pumasok sa utak ko kung sino ang batang nasa harapan ko ngayon. Bigla akong nanghina pero pinilit kong lumapit sakanya. Napatigil ako ng lumabas ang mukha ko sa harap ko. "Mom! You're so pretty! Just like ate Georgina!" He said.

No..no, anak. Lalapit na sana ako pero hindi na ako makagalaw. Nakita ko ang pagka-dismaya sa mukha ng anak ko. "We have a great family! Although. Too bad I have to say goodbye so soon, I haven't met how cool my family was!" I want to speak pero bawat buka ng bibig ko walang salitang lumalabas. Hindi ako makapagsalita.

I want to hug my child! "See mom, I'm happy. You should be happy too, I just have another request. Please reunite our family." He said. Anak, gagawin ko lahat please bumalik ka. Wag mo kaming iiwan, matutuwa ang Daddy mo kapag nalaman niya na buhay ka.

"I am the 10-year old angel, the youngest of the Padillas and Fords." He said. Nakita ko ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata ng anak ko, pero nakangiti parin siya. Don't force yourself anak.

Please, let me speak. "Mom. I'm sorry I have to leave so soon, I'm a bit sad watching my family like that. I always pray for my family's safety and happiness. I am happy if my family is happy, so please be happy because It makes me sad if everyone that I love is sad."

I don't know. Is this a dream? Well, if it is. I don't want to wake up anymore.

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May Part 2 ito bukas.

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