I'm Just Curious Too: Reconciliation

Chapter 12.2

Great. Fabien thought back on the day as he showered, made supper and resorted to holding the giant teddy bear he owned in his arms while he laid on his bed with it beside him. It felt foolish to him to dwell over the fact that Shaun called him by his nickname after so much time had past. He wanted the nostalgic care that he had received years ago but fought with the fact that time had passed from then and it was pathetic to be hung up over an ex. What made him feel extra shitty was the fact that being held by Shaun made him want to stick to the familiar body. Shaun felt firmer than the vague memories Fabien had.

"Really?" Fabien muttered as he smooshed his face into the bear and groaned.

His mind ventured in to a day dream of Shaun comforting him but halted when the thoughts were interrupted by the memory of his family visit. The sudden thud of footsteps tore him out of his mind and on to his now blond roommate. Kiel panted and looked around the room, walking in to pat the blankets when he saw nothing was out of place.

"What are you doing?" Fabien voiced while sitting up, his brows furrowing.

"Looking for the towel."

Fabien shook his head and reached back to grab a pillow and throw at Kiel. Kiel caught it with a laugh before crawling on to the bed and taking a seat next to Fabien. He laid his head against Fabien's left temple and took a deep breath in and out.

"Seeing that you took it no further than a drive home, how was your day?" Kiel started, hugging the pillow in the same manner that Fabien had held his bear.

"It was good. Busy as hell. And the drive back was .... Ok," Fabien hesitated. He thought back on the day and rummaged for an answer but the memory of Shaun holding him ripened his face to a dusty pink shade. He covered his mouth with his left hand, leaning forward in to it as he did so.

The sudden move made Kiel jump a bit. He leaned forward and looked at Fabien.

"Bibi?" Kiel's eyes darted over Fabien, observing the change in color.

"I-I feel a little sick," Fabien whispered.

Kiel lifted his hand and placed the back of it on Fabien's forehead, feeling the definite warmth of his skin.

"Let me check your temperature. Stay here," Kiel shifted but was stopped when Fabien grabbed his wrist when the hand left his head.

"No need. Just ... hug me," Fabien moved the bear and reached out for Kiel, who returned to his position as Fabien moved him more to wrap his arms around his torso.

Kiel adjusted himself and laid back on the bed, Fabien on top of him with his head on Kiel's chest and his arms gripping the material on top of Kiel's shoulders. Kiel rested his right hand on Fabien's head, drawing circles with his fingers while his left hand pressed on Fabien's shoulder blade. A few minutes of silence was kept between them, before Kiel broke it with soft words.

"Did anything bad happen?"

Fabien thought on the day and couldn't conclude that anything bad had happened. It was definitely the residue emotions of the trip that tainted his days grey, so he shook his head slightly in response but thought some more.

"I feel stuck despite moving around so much. I'm sorry if it's dragging you down," Fabien's eyes glossed over as he spoke.

"You're not dragging me down. Never have. Just don't drag yourself either. You need time to get through it so don't beat yourself up."

"My chances of overcoming are a hundred percent."

Kiel smiled and rubbed Fabien's head. "That's the spirit!"