Forever Alone

Chapter 3 Packing up and Leaving

After walking home from school, Bella flew open her bright white front door. Her house wasn't huge but it also wasn't very small. It was a pale yellow and the lawn needed some help.

Bella had a step brother named Michael and two step sisters named Karle and Julia. Michael was really cute. He dyed his hair different colors every few months and his laugh killed her inside. Even though he pissed her off all the time she had a tiny crush on him. She never showed it. She made it seem like she was more angry with him then she really was. She didn't want him to know that she liked him at all.

Her two step sisters Karle and Julia were a whole other story. Karle was 10 and Julia was 17. They were the most selfish bitches she had ever met. They got everything they wanted and spent all of her Mom's money. Bella only dealt with them for her mothers relationship. Her mothers happiness meant everything to her.

Her dad died from a plane crash. He was taking a business trip to California and he was suppose to be home a few days after he left. He never came back home. Bella was only seven years old and it impacted her childhood a lot. Bella still has terrible nightmares of her dads death. It affected everything she did. She stays up for hours late at night just thinking of how she could have prevented his death.

Luckily, she still had her mom. Sometimes she felt as if her mom wasn't even there. It was like she didn't even have a mom. Her mom was very busy all the time trying to bring in extra money since her step dad didn't have a good paying job. Everything she really needed her mom for she did alone. She faced all the obstacles in her teenage year by herself.

When she entered her house all she heard was screaming. Her younger sister Karle had OCD. She hated when people at school would say that they had OCD because they didn't understand how serious it really was. Everyday she would come home to yelling and her little sister throwing things at everyone. She tried to help out and talk to Karle but it never worked.

To escape from all the craziness she would hide up in her room and put on her headphones. Her room was way to colorful for her but her Mom and Step Dad didn't have money or time to repaint it. Yellow walls greeted her when she entered her room and she felt like she was going to throw up.

Michael followed her up the stairs and jumped on top or her while she entered her room.

"What the fuck can you get off of me!" Bella shouted. Michael backed of and chuckled a little. He loved to mess with her. His innocent face stared through her and she fell in love with him every time she saw him. He was really fucking hot.

Michael sat down next to her on her bed and asked her how her day went. They had a really long conversation and Michael tried to make her feel better about her terrible day. Michael was the only one who understood her. She felt that she could tell him anything and he would always have advice for her. The only thing she couldn't tell him is how much she liked him. She was to self conscious and knew that he wouldn't feel the same way in a million years. She was to fat, ugly, and stupid for him.

Once, Michael left the room she started packing for her new house. She packed everything she really needed. Which included all her band shirts and sweatpants. She liked lots of bands like Nirvana, Green Day, All Time Low, Panic! at the Disco, etc.

When she finally finished packing she jumped onto her bed. She lay there and thought about New York. She prayed she could be happy for once. She just needed one good friend and a better start. She started thinking about how much she wants a boyfriend. Right now the only guy she is attracted to is Michael. He's her step brother so it probably won't work out. She didn't want her Mom walking in on them having sex or even kissing because it would be really weird. She would also have a lot of explaining to do. If they broke up it would be so uncomfortable. Who cares about guys anyway? Bella spoke to herself.

She grabbed her phone from her dresser and realized that it was already midnight. She jumped off her bed and darted to the bathroom to get showered.

Bella then grabbed an old small blanket from her floor and tried to get comfortable on her bed, but all the nightmares about her dads death haunted her and kept her from sleeping.