Love of lies

Part 12

Noah's pov:
I went to cemetery and sat next to my mom and dad's graves .

N: hey guys . Dixie's sadly getting married. I'm trying to be happy for her but I can't . She's the live of my life and I can't stop my heart from loving her . You guys and mr.Damelio are the only ones who know that I love her ( starts crying) I'm just so dumb, so fucking dumb . I shouldn't have let her go that easily. I really hate myself right now. I wanna die and stay with y'all . And I think I'm gonna do it . See you soon mom and dad .

Today . Today is gonna be my last day in earth , I can't live like that anymore. I went to my house and sat there . I know she'll get engaged today , and tomorrow morning, will be the worst day in her life for losing me . I love her so much , and I need to see her before I'm gone . I went to their house and went to her room . I saw her laying on her bed on her phone .

D: Noah , what are you doing here?
N: I wanna spend more time with you ( lays next to her )
D: um okay ( opens her phone again )
N: no ( puts her phone in the nightstand) just stay with me a little
D: Noah are you okay ? You're acting so weird ( sits up )
N: ( lays on her lap ) I wanna stay like this , please don't push me away ,Stroke my hair like you always do , please Dixie ( starts crying)
D: Noah please tell me what's wrong? Why are you crying?? ( hugs him )
N: I wanna die Dixie , I don't want to live anymore
D: no don't say that! Please don't say that . ( rubs his cheek)
N: I-I can't Dixie , I'm so tired of this live and I wanna go to my parents
D: no no no no ! Don't think like that ! ( tearing up)
N: I'm sorry Dixie
D: D-DAD ! PLEASE COME HERE !!
M: ( runs in ) what wrong ? Why are y'all crying?
D: n-Noah's saying that he wanna die , dad please do something !
M: Noah , son what's wrong?
N: I wanna die , I w-wanna se my parents ( sobbing )
M: cmon son , let's go to my room
D: no stay here
M: Dixie please let us go
D: no dad !
M: Noah why are you feeling like that?
N: y-you know why
M: ( realizes )
D: what ? Why is he crying??
M: Dixie I'll tell you later . Cmon buddy ( takes him to his room ) what's up ?
N: I ca-n't do this , I wanna d-die . She's g-getting married . I w-want her so bad mr.Damelio , you know h-ow much I lo-ve her
M: I know Noah , but I can't do anything. She's in love with griffin and he's a good guy , I'm so sorry .
N: its not your fault
M: promise me something Noah
N: w-what ?
M: don't try to do anything, and you know what I mean
N: n-no I don't
M: don't try to kill yourself , it's not worth it
N: ( starts sobbing again)
M: ( hugs him ) please don't do it , please .
N: I'm s-sorry
M: Noah you're not doing anything, r-right?
N: ( looks down )
M: Noah! Please answer me!
N: I don't know ! I don't know if I should leave or stay ! I wanna go to my parents but at the same time , I want to stay here with y'all ! It's so hard ! And I'm tired of it !
M: p-please Noah , you're like my son . Don't do it
N: I wanna see Dixie ( goes to her room and hugs her )
D: ( hugs him tight ) please tell me what's wrong, I can help
N: n-no you can't . Please stop talking about me and let me cuddle you. Please
D: ofc come here ( lays on her bed )
N: ( lays on his chest and hugs her tight )
D: you'll be okay , everything is gonna alright ( strokes his head )
N: ( falls asleep)
D: ( kisses his head ) I love you bestie
M: how is he ?
D: sleeping . What happened? Did he tell you why is he crying like that ?
M: no ( lying ) he just told me that he wants to see his parents
D: I feel so bad , I want to help him but idk how
M: that's okay dix , anyways, when are you going to your date with griffin?
D: it's 4 pm now , our date is at 7:30
M: oh okay , I'm going to my room ( goes to his room )
D: ( goes on her phone)
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