Love of lies

Part 20

At 12

Noah's pov :
I was laying on my bed the I heard a knock on the door, it was the therapist. He sat on the chair in front of my deck on I sat on the couch.

Tth: so , first thing we have to do is getting you out of this depression. What did you do yesterday?
N: I went to a forest with my friend Dixie
Tth: ok that's good , what else ?
N: nothing , I just laid on my bed for the rest of the day
Tth: and this is why you're  depressed , staying in bed doing nothing . Do you have any hobbies?
N: mhm , I can play soccer
Tth: that's really amazing! Why don't you play it with your friends?
N: I don't play soccer anymore, it reminds me of my dad
Tth: isn't that a good thing ? Remembering that you used to play it with your dad , getting back your memories and feeling . Hm ?
N: no , I hate remembering my past , it hurts me .
Tth: then what about traveling? You can go to any country and have fun
N: I don't want too
Tth: I know you don't , but you have too !
N: I just wanna die okay ! I'm doing this for my mom
Tth: then do it , try to get better . Help yourself to get better . Noah you're a really strong person, I can see this in your eyes . You can do it . Just listen to me
N: no ( starts daydreaming )
A: do it baby , for me
N: no mom , I'm tired of this !
Tth: ( writing )
N: I wanna go to you and hug you ! Just let me ! Please !
A: baby I want to hug you too , but please do it , try to get better
N: I'm sorry mom , I can't . See you soon .
Tth: Noah
N: ( goes back to the reality ) w-what ?
Tth: who were you talking to?
N: m-my mom
Tth: what did she said?
N:  try to get better
Tth: and you're gonna try right ?
N: mhm

After 1 hour

The therapist just left and now I'm in my room . I got out and went to Dixie's room .

N: d-Dixie?
D: come in !
N: I'm gonna leave now
D: what why ?
N: I wanna go home
D: Noah you're always gonna alone at home !
N: Blake's going to be there
D: bu-
G: Dixie just let him go ! He said Blake is gonna be there
D: ( sighs ) fine , but give me a hug !! ( stands on the bed and hugs him tight )
N: ( puts his hand on her back )
D: hug me back !!
N: ( hugs her )
D: tighter !!
N: no Di-
D: cmon !! ( hugging him ) you can do it
N: ( hesitates to hugs her back )
D: cmon I'm waiting
N: ( hugs her )
D: there you go
N: ( hugs her tight )
D: ( rubs his neck )

We hugged for 5 minutes

N: ( pulls away )
D: do you fell good now ?
N: ( nods his head)
D: do you want me to drive you home?
N: no , I'll go by myself
D: okay , stay safe
N: I won't ( walks out of her room )
D: wow wow wow ( stands in front of him ) you're going to be safe .
N: I wish not
D: don't say that! You'll be fine
N: bye Dixie
D: promise me to not do anything!
N: bye ( Walks away)
D: ( goes back to griffin) this boy is driving me crazy! I'm so worried now
G: ( hugs her ) he'll be fine baby .
D: ( lays on his chest )

I drove back to my house and I went to the field . I grabbed my soccer ball and started playing with it . I felt weird but good . I continued playing then I got a call from Blake .

N: hi
Bl: hey bro , what are you doing ?
N: playing soccer
Bl: really ?!! That's awesome!
N: yeah , when are you coming ?
Bl: I'm on my way bro
N: okay , bye
Bl: bye ( hangs up)
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A/N
ITS MY BIRTHDAY! I'm finally 14 ! OmgI'm gonna be a senior this year !🥹🫶🏻