Missed Calls

Chapter 33

DIGGY

I walked to the room with a million and one things floating through my mind. I felt the tears stinging on my face and it felt like a grenade exploded in my heart. I felt like a was fighting in a war where there is no winner, I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that I actually had parents or the fact that I might have to live without the love of my life. Why was all that I could say.

I reached our dresser in our room and I looked at myself. "I look so ugly when I cry." I said wiping my tears from my face.

I looked at the piece of paper that was laying there on the dresser. I picked it up and there was a note with Eli's hand writing on it and he was spilling his heart out to me about how much he loves me. Just like my stepdad said he should.

"Hey babyboy...Its Eli obviously, I have been feeling a disconnect in our relationship and its because I haven't been understanding you and reading between the lines and being there for you. But I want you to know that this is not easy for me, nor will it ever be easy cause we as a couple and as humans we change. But my love for you will stay the same forever. I have to work hard everyday but I want to do that because I want you. I fell in love with you not because of how you look but because of who you are, even though you look pretty great to me." I read that and I caused me to chuckle a little.

"Im not complete with out you. You're the Blue in my sky and the chesse to my Macaroni. I wish to give you the world because thats what you are to me. You believe you dont do enough but I love you for the million things you never knew you were doing. Im my best when Im with you and words cant describe how much I love you. I cant see myself without you beacsue it doesn't get any better than you. Everytime I close my eyes I see nothing but you, but I pray that everytime I open my eyes your still there by my side with that twinkle in your eye and that smile that tells me that I got you and you got me.

Love Always
Your Hubby Eli."

I smiled as the words from his note gave me comfort that I desperately needed. I saw the light and fog from the bathroom and the strong smell of Eli's body wash come into the room. He came over to me and placed his hand on the small of my back.

"I see you read my note, I wasn't really done with it but-." Eli spoke.

"No it was good." I said pulling his robe on his chest.

"How you feeling?" He asked me.

I quickly shrugged my shoulders and I gave him a sorrowful look.

"Well obviously something is wrong. Do you wanna talk about it?" He said.

"No, well i dont know." I say lightly.

"Is there anything you need Diggy?" He questioned.

"I dont know Eli, just stop asking." I raised my voice.

I looked at him and he had his eyebrow raised and he threw his hands up in the air as a sign that he wouldnt ask me anymore. He walked towards the bed and I couldnt help but feel bad.

"Im sorry Im yelling." I said as I turned from him and walked and stood in front of the couch in our room.

"Baby can you just talk to me, tell me whats wrong." Eli said one last time.

"I dont know whats wrong Eli." I said out of fear of telling him the truth.

"Comere." Eli spoke.

I just shook my head no with my back still turned to him. I watched as he sat on the loveseat in front of me his music played and the song I Swear by All-4-One came on. I folded my arms and I looked away from him because I was upset with myself.