behind closed doors : seoksoo

004 : the promise

four years ago

"just tell him straight ji, we'll be leaving tomorrow, you can't drag it on for any longer," jeonghan rested a hand on his friend's thigh, rubbing his hand from side to side slightly in attempts to soothe him. jisoo however only stared out of the bus window, chewing at his tongue as an unnerving feeling grew in the pit of his stomach, a sudden nauseating sensation taking over his senses as they had arrived at their destination. catching his attention immediately was a specific male with espresso brown hair standing out upon the crowds, waving both of his hands at them from outside.

his smile radiated from outside and into the bus, a dreary grin now forming on jisoo's face as he began to stand up from his seat, making his way to the exit of the vehicle.

"soo!" the male giggled childishly as he leaped into jisoo's arms, nuzzling his nose into the crook of the elder's neck, "i got in!" he whisper-yelled into his ear, his feet close to being off of the ground as he held onto the older, his heart buzzing in pure ecstasy.

seokmin had been working on his studies over and over in attempts to get high scoring grades so he could be one step closer to pursuing his dreams of becoming a famous singer. and all of his hard work seemed to have payed off as he had just been accepted into one of the most prestigious music and arts college there is in south korea.

jisoo's gloomy cloud of misery had now cleared as his boyfriend's sunny personality took over completely. he now adopted a bright smile, his eyes too becoming full of nothing but happiness.

"you're being serious?" he stared into seokmin's eyes, both of them exchanging admiration towards one another. the younger nodded hastily, an exhilarating aura about him as he took small jumps up and down.

jisoo let out a squeamish laughter as he swept seokmin off of the floor, spinning the both of them in circles, "i'm so proud of you!"

"there's a welcoming competition next week, everyone will get to know one another then," the younger's eyes formed crescents as he spoke, every word laced with nothing but thrill and anticipation.

"you'll come with me, right?" he nodded as if he already expected his boyfriend to say yes, because they did everything together, they told one another that it would be them, jisoo and seokmin, together until the day they died.

a pang of culpability struck jisoo's heart as he only looked into seokmin's eyes, panic overriding his whole body. just then, seungkwan came running up to the three of them, basing himself next to jeonghan who had been stood admiring the couple from a small distance.

"ah! kwan got in as well!" seokmin had now ran towards his best friend, launching an arm around his shoulder and dragging him towards jisoo, "he wants you to come next week as well, and you hyung!" he now pointed towards jeonghan, however, the eldest of the four only held a sad smile across his face at the mentioning of his name.

"you'll be there right? how am i supposed to win if you're not there with me?" a pout grew on his lips as he clutched jisoo's hands in his own, batting his eyelashes at the older as a cheeky smile hid behind his pout.

just get straight to the point jisoo, he mentally encouraged himself for the dreaded downfall he was about to send his boyfriend's way.

"i won't be able to go seoks," he had tried to speak warmly but his words came out harsher than intended.

and just this alone managed to cause every one of seokmin's features to drop massively. his senses blocked with confusion as his fingertips slowly bristled against jisoo's.