I'm Fine //Matthew Espinosa

Chapter 28

His parents, Mahogany and the rest of the boys arrived soon after I called. They entered his room.

"Brooke!" The boys yelled.

"Hey guys!" I said tears still streaming down my face. Happy tears of course.

"I haven't seen you ever since you know." Nash stated.

I know what he meant. The accident.

"How are you?" I asked.

"Okay." They all responded.

"How bout' you?" Hayes asked.

"I've been better."

There was a long pause. I used to be really close to the boys. To be honest I think that we drifted apart. For the first month the boys came and seen Matt, but after two months they gave up. They lost hope.

"So have you been seeing anyone?" Taylor asked.

"Excuse me? I'm dating Matt, just because he was in a coma doesn't mean that I don't love him! What do you think I am a slut?" I yelled.

"What the hell dude!!" Gilinsky exclaimed.

"I didn't mean it like that!"

"Well that's what it sounded like! Do you know what never mind. Please don't upset him he just woke up." I trailed off.

I walked down the hallway to get some coffee since there was a Starbucks.

I ordered my drink and sat down at the window. I slowly sipped my coffee and stared out the window.

"I'm sorry about Taylor, he has been acting like a dick lately, I don't know what's wrong with him." A voice spoke. It was Shawn. I could tell his voice was so gentle and sweet, he had a slight accent which made him even cuter.

Yes, I had a little crush on Shawn but I loved Matt in a way I didn't even know was possible.

"I found this on the ground. It's really amazing you should record it."

I looked over at him and he was holding a paper. It was slightly crumpled, most likely because it was stepped on.

"Oh thank you." I said quickly grabbing the paper out of his hand and sliding it in my pocket as I looked down at the floor.

"I'm not kidding, you should really record it. "

"I can't sing." I confessed.

"Sure, you can." He reassured me.

"No I'm pretty horrible. I sound like a cats giving birth than dying."

He laughed.

"Your not that bad remember when we sang a thousand years? You were amazing."

"Thanks."

There was a long pause.

"I really like your new album it's amazing."

"Thanks." He replied.

"How did you do it?" He asked.

"Do what?"

"Stay with Matt, coming and seeing him every day. How did you live your life?"

"Love."

"Come on that's so cliché"

"Yes, it is very cliché but it's true. I love Matt. I needed to be with him. I love him. He is my everything. And if this is what it takes."

"He really loves you."

I smiled.

"When we first started the tour he would not stop talking about you."

"I love him so much."

I stared out the window.

"Brooke you need to come, now! Matt is freaking out!" Mahogany called.

I stood up and ran to Matt's room.

"Matt, baby what's wrong?"

"Sophie, I -" I cut him off.

"Who's Sophie?"

"My girlfriend, Sophie Brooke Sanders, but I always called her by her middle name Brooke because she preferred Brooke."

"Matt, I'm not Sophie."

"What? Who the hell are you then?"

"I'm Brooklyn Giovanni your current girlfriend we dated senior year and we went to prom together. You saved me from almost dying."

"I have no idea who you are, I think you should leave." He said.

At that moment my heart shattered into a million pieces. I wasted 3 months waiting for him to wake up and he doesn't even remember me. I held back the tears and grabbed my guitar. I ran outside of his room, tears streaming down my face.

"Brooke, honey what's wrong?" His mom asked.

"He wants Sophie Brooke Sanders. Not me." I said in a bitter tone.

I ran to my car and drove home. I stepped on the gas and drove to the beach.

I got out of my car and walked to the end of the small beach. I took off my shirt and slipped off my leggings.

I was going to do it. Nobody cares about me. Matt doesn't. My brothers don't. My Dad doesn't. I have no one I'm alone.

I took slow steps into the water. As I my feet touched the cold water I thought of my favourite song.

Fix You by: Coldplay

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When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

The water was now up to my thighs.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace

Now my stomach.

When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Now my chest.

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Now my chin.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Now my lips.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

All of my body was submerged in the water.

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

I took one last breath.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I let the water fill my lungs.