Free-Fall: Vigilante Tommyinnit AU

《CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE》

Tommy POV-

False information has been spread too often. First, Dream and XD were twins, next XD is older. That's why no one really actually knows, because we've all been told different things.

I was very obvious about who I was. I say that a lot, and there are still plenty of reasons why. But I also want XD to know I'm not afraid of him, or society. Or, well, I am afraid, but there is no reason to be. It's just like that sense of anxiety you get, when you know things will work out but you still can't help but feel anxious.

I don't know what I was thinking, getting a Job at the Hero corporation, just because I wanted everyone to know who I was. Maybe it was selfish, but look at everything now. The Hero corporation is falling apart. And all I had to do was make an appearance. Yeah, everyone already hated XD to an extent. But now they are actually doing something, leaving, taking back their rights.

The point of vigilantism was to create a grey area in a society of Heroes and Villains. People dont want decisions. They dont want to choose, they cant choose. I was so caught up in they grey area, I forgot there could be blue, or red. You get the point.

I was neglected by my family, then taken to be used as a science experiment. Now Dream has probably killed himself.

The truth is they arent related, XD and Dream. They are the same person. I dont know why but in every event, they are portrayed as two separate people. Even Drista went along with it. It's a personality disorder, plus an Dissociative Identity Disorder. Dream knows XD is him, but he keeps portraying him as another person. A separate being. Red venom isn't what I said it was. I lied about it a long time ago. It doesn't enhance abilities. It doesn't depend on your genetics or ability, or anything like that. Red venom is basically a copy of my blood. My mother's blood. It's like a gamble when you drink it. 50/50 chance it kills you or makes you stronger. It doesn't matter who you are. Genetics, bloodline, family, ability, non of that matters.

Deo knew the truth so he went and faked his death to go behind the scenes. He told me before he and Luke and Bitzel enhanced it to cure me. I knew what they really meant. It's not a poison, or a weapon anymore. It doesn't do anything now. When I drank it, yeah, it slowed the affect of the "XD disease/virus", but that's because of a new chemical formula. It only slows the virus. You can never cure it. I can never be cured, and that's okay. Because it can't kill anyone anymore. It's just there.

The human body sometimes learns to adapt to it. Those that were said to have died to it,  died because of harsh treatment. Physical violence, torture, beatings. Nothing was what people thought it was. It's a strange thing. Drinking it can kill you alone though.

It was supposed to be like this. Boffy and everyone knew this but we lied because the hero corporation was going to fall anyways. We just gave it a little push.

I dont know If I want to use the discs to restart anything yet.
I have the option, I just dont know if i'll use it.

It doesn't really matter. We can go back in time, but the discs can only do so much. No ones memories will change. Everything will be out of balance.

Ever heard of free-fall? The definition being downward movement under the force of gravity only. I am gravity, and I am making everything spiral. Because Balance will never exist. Not in this life, not in the next.

Kristen isn't dead. I know she isnt. She was there when I was kidnapped, she watched as I was detained. Sorrow in her eyes, and a million questions on my tongue.

Guess everyone has an obsession with faking their death. Maybe it's just to be dramatic or some shit.

I've seen "XD" and Dream talk to each other. It's weird because I know they're the same person, it's just that Dream has used one of his many abilities, to create the illusion of another person, just made of energy, his energy.

I hated it, how confusing everything has been. I was in denial for a bit, about the truth of Red venom. My mother. Dream. Everything.

Deo is a villain now because someone needs to be blamed for the fall of the Hero corporation. Luke and Bitzel followed him. So now, I will too.

I dont think Dan knows. Or Puffy, or anyone. Just me, just Deo, just Luke, just Bitzel. I should probably come clean to Tubbo and Ranboo. They'll kill me anyways.

Nothing was what it seemed on purpose. I kept it like that because in the end, I dont think any of this mattered.

"I know what your thinking", Deo said, "Yeah?", I didn't see him come in. I dont even know how he got into the building. "Everything will spiral anyway, whether you come clean or not. Your going to be happy. I promise. Your going to get the family you always wanted. You'll be free. You wont have to feel alone anymore. Toby and Ranboo will understand. They'll see why you did it. It wont change anything. Some things are like that, they just dont change. No matter how much time passes, no matter what happens. There's always something, or someone you'll always have", I smiled, "You think so?", "I know so", "when do you think my mom will come back?", "Soon enough. She's probably been waiting for things to clear up. You want to use the discs?", I shook my head, "some things never change right? Everyone will still remember, no matter how far we go back. It wont change how we've been affected today, or how we will be effected tomorrow", "yeah, you drop one word, the rest will fall", Deo said, referring to whether or not the truth is revealed, "It's all gonna go free-falling anyways", I replied, and that was true. Just because some things fall, doesn't mean it's always going to fall in a bad way. Everything will fall into place eventually.