Holding Back

Chapter 29

Tris POV

I wake up and see Tobias sitting against my door, sleeping.

It's still dark out so I get up and tap him on the shoulder.

"You can come in the bed." I whisper.

He nods and stands up. He crawls into bed and drifts off back to sleep.

I wake up again when the sun is out. I look at the clock on my nightstand and see that it is almost 10.

Memories from last night flow through my head and I start crying again. I bury my head into the pillow to try and stifle my sobs.

"Tris." Tobias mumbles.

He wraps an arm around me and rolls me onto my back.

"Why are you crying?" He asks.

"I just remembered what happened." I say.

"Get out of the past. That's over and today is a new day. Move on and forget about it." He says.

"I can't forget about it. I've put myself through three relationships only to get hurt in the end." I say.

"Well at least stop crying about it." He says. "It's too early to cry."

"I'm going to shower." I say.

"Great, you'll feel better after that and then I'll make breakfast." He says.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" I ask. "Are you pitying me?"

"A little, but who wouldn't?" He asks.

"Don't pity me. I've told you, I don't want your pity." I say.

"I said a little bit. I'm not just pitying you." He says.

"Whatever, I'm going to shower." I say.

I walk into the bathroom and peel my clothes off. I turn the shower on and step in. As soon as I get in, I start sobbing again.

The shower has always been a safe place for me to let anything out because nobody can hear me. I let myself cry for a good ten minutes before I rinse off and wash myself. When I finish, I get out of the shower and put on some sweatpants and a sweatshirt.

"That took a while." Tobias says.

I see him taking stuff out of my fridge and turning the stove on.

"Is eggs fine?" He asks.

I nod.

"Scrambled? Fried? Sunny side up? What do you want?" He asks.

I shrug my shoulders.

"Tris, you have to chose." He says, smiling a little.

"Sunny side up." I say.

He smiles and cracks the egg.

"Toast?" He asks.

I nod. "With jam."

"Of course." He says.

I don't know why he's being so nice to me, but I'm enjoying it. If bad things lead to him treating me like this than maybe these bad things aren't too bad.

Tobias POV

I know Tris was crying in the shower. I can see it on her face. Her eyes are a little puffy and bloodshot.

I place the eggs and toast in front of her and sit down next to her with my plate.

"We should probably leave in the next half hour to get to Starbucks with everyone." I say.