Chapter 19

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"Me of yesterday

Me of today

Me of tomorrow 

(I'm learning how to love myself)"

"Broken people understand the pain of broken people

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"Broken people understand the pain of broken people..." I whispered as he nodded in acknowledgment.

"Yeah, broken people understand the pain of broken people." He whispered the same thing again.

 "She is my first love. I regret now why I selected her as my first love." 

"Never regret it, Adam. Never regret the memories you had with her. Regretting the time you spent with her will hurt the most. You might regret what way you ended with her, but not the thing love you had with her." 

"I regretted it already, Mireya. We were like so close and in insane love. I loved her so much. I loved the way I loved her and she loved me. The people were jealous of us being in love. I loved to show her to the world without any hesitation. I bought her everything she wanted and we made love and I gave her my virginity because I trusted her so much, but in the end, all she did was cheat on me with an old guy probably twenty years older than her and it's fucking disgusting to see. I thought we both loved each other forever, but I never know forever ends so soon."  He sighed clasping our hands. I placed my cheek on his head which was leaning on my shoulder. I ran my thumb over his palm calming his emotions.

"After I saw that, I lost it. She was so drunk and she said I didn't satisfy her the way she needed and so she needed a person who will satisfy her more sexually. All I thought was... Was love everything about sex in the end? After sobering up, she said she regretted having sex with that old man and constantly asked sorry. I was so angry and I didn't see her. After that, she left the town and never came back until today. She already said that she will be back for me, but guess what she wants to turn my life into a nightmare again.

I couldn't take it and I started pushing myself badly and I became distant from my family and friends. I fell into depression. It affected my whole family. Isabella would fear me since she was still a little girl in our home. Mom and dad tried all the ways they wanted to get me out of depression. 

Alex was the one who is affected the most. He is my twin. He is the other half of me. He was so lost without me being with him. He shared the same pain I had. He had gone worse equal to me. It affected him so much. He too suffered because of me. The missing and pain made him so worse and it was difficult for him to cope without me. I felt more guilty when I look at him in pain. It was twin instinct so we suffered more. He suffered more. 

That's when mom finally showed Alex who was worse than me in front of me. He had bags under his eyes and he looked malnourished. He didn't look like the goofy Alex or happy Alex for me. That's when it hit me. I thought the pain was only for me, but I was wrong. It hurt to see Alex like this and I tried and pushed myself to come from the hell hole with the help of my family. They supported me while it took almost a year for me and Alex to recover. I did it for him and forgot all the memories. 

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