The Billionaire's Secret (𝓑𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓲𝓻𝓮 𝓢𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 #1)

Chapter 31

Pabalik na kami ngayon sa village nila Bonjour at kasama namin si Acrisius. Bon called one of their driver and asked to pick up Acrisius' car. I looked at the backseat and there he is silently sleeping.

I let out a deep breath. Ano pa bang hindi ko nalalaman sa'yo Acrisius, why do you need to be this mysterious to me. Naguguluhan man ay pinili ko nalang itikom ang bibig ko kahit na gustong gusto ko ng magtanong.

Finally we arrived. I already saw kuya Grey standing at the gate I'm sure he is waiting for us. I immediately get down and opened the door of the backseat. Kuya Grey and Bon assist him and bring him inside his house.

"Uuwi ka na ba or you're going to stay here?" Bon asked after he closed the door of Acrisius' room. I shook my head. "Hintayin ko lang siya makatulog then I'll go home. For sure nag aalala na din sila mama sa'akin." I answered and he nodded. "Sa labas lang ako. Just text me para ihatid kita." he said and left me.

I let another deep breath. I really wanted to take some rest but I can't leave him like that. I took some warm water in his kitchen and put it in a basin. I also look for a towel and entered his room.

He looked really tired. I closed my eyes for a seconds and sit beside him. I started to wipe the towel on his face down to his neck and wipe another clean towel. After that I started unbuttoning his sleeve and wipe his arms and chest. I stop for awhile and stare at his sexy body.

"Aish! Ano bang iniisip mo." I said to myself and continue what I'm doing. I also removed his pants and leave his boxers short. After I dressed him I took the basin and towel. I was about to go outside when he pulled my shirt.

My forehead automatically creased while looking at him. "Stay." he said but his eyes are still closed. After a few seconds he speak again. "Cuddle, baby." he uttered so I went to the other side of his bed and lyed beside him.

"Thank you for taking care of me." he said while hugging my waist. "Thank you for not leaving me during this hard times." he added. I just kept on listening. His eyes are still closed at this moment. I heard him sighed.

"I badly wanted to take this pain away but it won't and all of a sudden I just wanted to disappear and leave this world just like what she did." he's now looking at the ceiling and talks about his Mom.

"I can't stop blaming myself for what happened. . . that maybe if I did something she's still alive and I don't feel left behind from this unfair world." I could see the pain in his eyes even in his voice. I hugged him tighter.

"It's been a long day Acrisius, you need to take a rest. Bukas nalang natin pag usapan ang lahat. For now, just rest everything to God, okay?" I said and he nodded. I kissed his forehead and comb his hair using my fingers. I can't see him like that. This day is too much. He suffers a lot and I can't hear it anymore.

This is the reality. When we lose someone, some people feel left behind like Acrisius and some feels survivors guilt in which they believe na dapat mawala na din sila or dapat sila 'yung nawala instead of that person. Some simply regrets what they missed out before the end. Lagi tayong naghahanap ng way para maisisi natin ang lahat sa sarili natin, we find to make circumstances our fault even when it's not. We always have a regrets. We always feel that we could have done something. There's nothing wrong to feel a guilt but we need to learn to let it go eventually because there's nothing to gain from holding on to it. We should learn from our regrets so we can use them as a guide in the future.

I glanced at him. He's now in a deep sleep. I pulled the comforter and wrap it to his body. "Goodnight, love." I said and kissed his forehead before leaving his room.

I saw Bonjour sitting at the balcony with a cup of coffee and cigarettes. He glanced at me. "How's him?" he asked. "Sleeping." I answered. I just hope na bukas okay na siya.