Look After You - Sequel - Jack Grealish

Thirty Seven.

A week had past, or nearly a week since Jack had found himself in Alexa's bedroom, and she had said that she would talk to him when she was ready.

But Jack was done waiting around, and upon seeing her stood alongside the training pitch with her trusty black camera, he knew today was the day she would talk to him, he would make it his goal of the day.

"Right boys, the waters here, and they'll be the energy shots and sports drink that's sponsoring available in the afternoon, you've got lunch at twelve, but Jack, Saka and Dec you've got a promo video to shoot after dinner" Aimee stated, as she read the information off her clipboard, whilst Alexa stood there, just observing the players.

"You've also got suit fitting and alterations this afternoon with a late training session before dinner" Alexa stated, as her mobile began to ring before she excused herself from the gathering and stood to the side.

"Hello?" Alexa questioned down the phone, and then smiled at the confirmation of her antenatal appointment on Friday. "Of course, I'll be there for eleven" Alexa smiled as she hung up the phone, and then jumped as Mason wrapped his arm around her.

"How's my little nephew" Mason chuckled, as Alexa rolled her eyes at his comment. "You're so sure it's a boy ain't you" Alexa smiled. "I have a feeling, and hey I knew Summer was a girl before Jaz announced it" Mason smiled, as Alexa nodded her head. "I know, but I don't know if I want to find out" Alexa stated, as she rubbed her stomach. There was nothing evident to show she was pregnant, apart from the morning sickness that very rarely happened in a morning.

"Then don't find out, we can keep it a surprise" Mason smiled, as Declan and Tyrone ran over to them. "Congratulations little mount" Tyrone smiled as Alexa nodded her head as a thank you, and a smile to go with her wordless answer.

"Forgive me for leaving so soon, but I've got things to do, I'll be out later to take photos" Alexa smiled, as she waved quickly to the males and headed on inside the busy halls of St George's Park, as much as she loved the hustle and bustle, it could also be quite daunting when the press were allowed inside.

Alexa listened to her own feet plod along the flooring of the park, the smell of cleaning in the distance and she could already feel her stomach turn with the thought of food.

"You don't want me to eat do you" Alexa chuckled, but the laughing soon turned to a grimace look on her face as she began to speed walk to the nearest bathroom. "One day would be great" Alexa huffed, as she crouched down next to the toilet and let her head rest on the toilet seat.

"Is this what it's like then?" Jack questioned from behind her, but she didn't have the effort to turn around and look at him, she didn't even have the effort to tell him to leave her alone. Despite her ability to make it look like she was glowing and she was having a pregnancy sent from the gods, she was sleep deprived, never comfortable and could barely eat anything.

"Wouldn't you like to know" Alexa chuckled, but she soon regretted that movement as she emptied the contents of her stomach into the toilet bowl.
"I would Lex, I wanna know how to help" Jack whispered, as he crouched down and began to move her hair over her shoulder, and hold it back in a some sort of hand held ponytail. 

"This could ruin your career, before it's even started" Alexa stated, as Jack huffed from behind her. "Deciding my life choices for me?" Jack questioned. "You don't get it" Alexa whispered, as she began to wipe at her eyes, that were filled with tears from throwing up as Jack sat down on the floor next to her, still holding her hair back and rubbing his thumb along the nape of her neck. 

"I don't get it? Ya the one who's pushed me away Lex, ya would let me be there for ya" Jack stated, as Alexa turned to look at him. "You cheated on me, in what part of they do you think that says 'I'm ready for a stable relationship with a baby' because to me your actions didn't" Alexa stated.

"I did wrong and I regret it everyday Lex, but this baby is mine, I want to be apart of their life even if ya won't let me be apart of yours" Jack stated, still rubbing at the nape of her neck, and as much as Alexa wouldn't admit it, she liked the feeling of him being around to comfort her through this, even if it would be a one time thing.

"It's a lot to take on Jack" Alexa breathed, as she ran a hand through her hair and Jack let go of it, but his hand still stayed firmly on her back. "Let me take it on" Jack stated. "Let me be a dad" Jack smiled.

"You'll always be a dad, I'll never take that away from you, but you broke my heart Jack, and I can't forgive that right now" Alexa whispered, as she stood up from the floor she had been crouched down on, looking at the male who she loved, who she still loved, and she was sure she would still love next year, and the years to come.

"Can ya ever forgive me? Can we ever try again?" Jack mumbled, as Alexa shrugged her shoulders, but the lost look she had in her eyes when she met Jack was clear as day, pulling at his heart strings and breaking whatever heart he had left.

"I won't give up on us Lex, I'll prove to ya that I need ya and want ya" Jack whispered, as he held her hand briefly, stopping her leaving the toilet, as she looked down at his hand holding hers she couldn't help but feel the want to hug him, to hold him, to say it's okay and she loves him.
But all she did was nod her head, and walk away, listening to the music from down the hallway that played softly for the guests of St George's Park.

It's always have, and never hold, because you've begun to feel like home..