Wrath Of Azura

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Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga nagbago, but one thing is for sure the relationship between me and Raizel... is complicated.

Katulad nga ng mga sinabi nila sa una lang talaga ang masaya at habang tumatagal magbabago din 'yan. I didn't believe them, I still kept holding to this relationship because I know he still loves me.

Hindi na ako bumabalik sa tirahan namin ni Big Bo dahil sa tingin ni Raizel may malisya ang pag s-stay ng isang babae at lalaki sa iisang bahay kahit matagal na kami ni Big Bo mag kasama.

"I'm a guy as well, Azura. Maraming mga tiwali na lalaki ngayon lalo na puro lalaki ang nasa gang mo, hindi ka ba nandidiri sa sarili mo-" before he should talk further I slapped him hard.

He had no rights to talk like that to them especially to Big Bo. Huwag niyang itutulad si Big Bo at ang mga kaibigan ko sa mga lalaki na iba sa kanila. They are different... they respect women more than the government officials.

"You have no right to talk shit about them!" I shouted and just ran away from his penthouse.

And just like that he didn't chase me nor say sorry. Was I too harsh? Hihiwalayan na ba niya ako? Did I fail to be a perfect girlfriend to him? Many questions are going inside my head right now that I even forgot... that I am going to school.

For sure I have already flunked my grades and may possibilities I have to repeat. I don't care about it anymore-

"Azura."

I flinched hearing the voice, lumingon ako sa likod ko at nakita si Big Bo may bitbit na plastics at mukhang galing siya sa palengke.

"Mag-usap tayo." He said as the both of us pumunta sa isang eskinita kung saan walang makakakita sa amin o makakrinig.

I was ready to hear some nagging, but he just said, "Kamusta ka na? Are you eating well kila Raizel? Nakakakain ka parin ba ng nutripuffs?"

I felt a heavyweight inside my chest and I could feel myself crying.

"Are you still going to school? Bayaran na ng tuition niyo-"

"I don't want to go to school anymore..." I said while looking down. I feel ashamed looking at him.

"I see if that's what you want... I can't force you to go to school, but... please, visit the house sometime. Ipagluluto kita." He said smiling at me as he leaned forward and pat my head.

"Why are you still not giving up on me?! Is it because you feel obliged to take care of me?! Is it because you pity me? Or is it because of lily-"

"I'm taking care of you because I want to, Azura." He said as I see him clenched on the plastics. "There are no reasons why should I take care of you. It's not because I pity you... and especially not because of lily... I took that responsibility to raise you and take care of you! Think all you want... the door is open." And with that, he just walked away.

I slowly leaned my back on the wall and felt tears streaming down my cheeks. It was just tears, I did not feel anything. Hindi ko alam ba't tumutulo luha ko. Is it because I shouted at Big Bo? Is it because of the words he said?

Bumalik din naman ako sa penthouse ni Raizel dahil wala naman ako mapupuntahan. Nakita ko si Raziel nan aka upo sa sofa at umiinom ng beer. Lumingon siya sa akin and hugged me.

"I'm sorry, I was being paranoid, right? I love you... you know that right?" he then kissed my forehead down to my cheek and neck. He then looked at me, all I see in his eyes was full of love.

"It's alright... I understand that you're just being protective, alam mo naman ang panahon ngayon." I smiled as I caressed his face. His face brightened up.