Fan Series #2; Unpredicted Dreams

33; Still Not

ZHUBAO

After he said those words, all I can see on his eyes was sadness, I don't even see that he is mad at me or what, it was pure sadness, that he is ashamed because of loving me. He's empty, that's what he's showing, he suddenly gave his sight on the place where I am, his eyes are shocked looking at me.

But before he could speak a word, I walked away from that room, having a guilt, asking myself why I didn't even fell in love with him those times. Now that he still feels the same, I don't have the chance to fall for him because I already love someone else, and that's Ji.

I was about to have my other step when someone held my arm, I knew it was him. I stopped while still looking where I am walking, not facing him to see his eyes surely full of tears. "Zhubao..."

"Zeyu, I know what you are going to say, just please... just forget about loving me, accept it." I said, with no emotion, I cannot feel anything. I know myself that I will never fall for him, my feelings are still, for Ji.

"Is it something wrong with me?" He asked.

Thats when I finally faced him, with a what expression.

"How can you say that Zeyu? You are worth, you are perfect, you are the man almost all girls dreamed of, and why are you chasing a woman like me, who had no sweetness, that is boyish, that is so dangerous. Aren't you tired? Why? Because you love me? Zeyu, if you love someone... you should sacrifice everything, just to make them happy, you need to let go..." I pointed his chest. "You are everything, Zeyu. But maybe... this time, we aren't supposed to be with each other, maybe next life..."

He looked at me after I said those words, next life.

"Do you think there will be a next life?" He suddenly asked while his tears are forming, I didn't know what to respond about it. Maybe he now believed about next life which is just a myth, and I don't know if it's true. He believed on my lies for the second time.

"Maybe there is, I am not sure, just don't believe me—"

"I believe in you..." His smile was priceless before he walked away from me, that's when I saw Shen Yang staring at us. Zeyu didn't noticed her, but I can see that she was hurt, hearing Zeyu having hope to have me.

I awkwardly sighed and went downstairs, following Zeyu there. I don't know what to explain her, I know that she likes Zeyu a lot but seems that Zeyu is too blind for that he cannot even see or feel what she does, I pity them.

Both of them are blind, of love.

I felt babe tapped my shoulder and whispered, "Clear your mind, babe. We are here to relax, not to overthink..."

I nodded and smiled, he suddenly held my hand and let our fingers intertwine.

It feels good to be home.

ZEYU

The kids are resting since its four at noon, they we're so tired from the travel so we let them sleep that long. I know I am not their parent, but I guess being an uncle isn't that bad at all, I sat down the kitchen island and poured some liquor on the glass,

My friends are also taking rest, I did my best to fall asleep, but I can't, all I can do while laying down is to think about her. But what if her words get true and next life will be ahead?

Flashback

After the wedding, we congratulate them, we all took pictures together with the bride and groom, but then I heard Junhao asking Ji if he can talk with Zhubao, Ji agreed, and they both went on the side.

"Congratulations, Zhubao..." Junhao smiled and they both hugged each other. "I am happy for the both of you..."

"Junhao, you're the best of bestest friend. If it's not because of you, I wouldn't realize that I am in love with Ji..." she said, I didn't mean to hear all those, but I did.

What does she mean?

"If tolerating is the way to make you feel loved and happy, I would do it even in next life..." Junhao and she laughed together as if that was a kind of joke.

"Junhao, I still want you to be my best friend on our next life. Will you be?" Zhubao asked as Junhao instantly nodded,

"Of course, I will be your best friend on next life..." He smiled.

She showed her pinky finger and smiled, "Next life?"

"Next life..." they both held their pinky's together, promising that next life to each other.

End of Flashback

Junhao believed her for that, I think I should too. I want to see her again on our next life, I sighed as I held the permanent Z scar on my right forehead, it wasn't visible when far away but when you stare at it, you'll see that I have it.

This scar was the scar I got that day on the camping, where Zhubao saved all of us. I owe her my life; I've always wanted to be her... and to be her's.

It makes me think, even Junhao was just loved, at least, he was loved. While me, still having the friend zone and the friendly love, she told me that there is nothing wrong with me.

She even called me Perfect.

Thats when I realized the things she said, she was describing herself with flaws and imperfections. But does it matter?

It doesn't.

Even she is the most unsweet person I see in this whole wide world; I would still fall for her and love her with all of my heart. It doesn't matter to me, as long as I love her. I sighed and drank the liquor, "I hope we'll see each other in our next life, I will make sure that I will find you..."

Still not moving on.

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