Fan Series #2; Unpredicted Dreams

68; Was Not Restored

JIAXIN

I keep looking at the photos in the living room, I can't remember any of the faces I see in each photo. But I can see myself, my smiles were happy and natural during those times, I smile from ear to ear in every photo I see, during Ji's wedding, I was with a girl but I don't know who she is.

Ji, he's the only one I've been able to talk to here since I got out of the hospital, because his wife that is boyish, always at work. This son of theirs, Yong, really reminds me of everything, but I am filled with more and more curiosity about my past.

I sat on the couch then took the album from under the table, its title was My Sunshine. 

My brows furrowed after I read the title of that album, I opened it and found myself with the same girl I was with at Ji's wedding. I was happy, very happy, happy with this girl, my smile is different, it was priceless, I've never seen it in my other photos before, why is she with me and why am I so happy with her?

I saw the photos in the album from the day we dated for the first time, on the beach, in the Philippines, there's even one in America. We also went to Singapore, we donated to charities and orphanages, we were on a farm and milked cows, planted plants, dancing on a stage, sky diving, reading a book, boating on the river, eating seafood, painting.

What caught my attention the most was the photo of me kneeling in front of her, holding a silver ring. I was so... happy.

I was also hugging her tightly as if shouting the word YES!

I can't understand what I saw, is this girl my fiancé, but where is she now?

But when I moved the album page again, there were no more photos after that, I thought something had just been skipped but there really wasn't until the end, only half the album was full of photos.

It seems that the placement here is not finished, I am confused. 

Why is there nothing going on after those things?

Is she gone?

I put the album back on the bottom of the table then looked away, what really happened, I don't understand anything. 

Everything is just blurry; I need to talk to Yong about it.

I stood up and went straight to Yong's room, "Yong, we need to talk. I need to know something..."

"Alright, uncle Jiaxin. I'll finish this in a moment, I'll follow you outside." Yong said that's why I nodded and went out.

Trembling, full of curiosity, I sat on the balcony bench and sighed, I wish I knew everything. After a while, I saw Yong pull the sliding door open, holding his ipod and sat down in the seat opposite me. "What are we going to talk about, Uncle?"

I sighed and looked at him.

YONG

I stared back to uncle Jiaxin, "What do you wanna talk about, uncle?"

"About my past..." he said and took a picture from his pocket, "Who is this woman, Yong, why do I feel so happy with her in these photos?"

I suddenly felt sad staring at the picture he showed me, I sighed and took it from his hands, my tears suddenly formed, "Uncle Jiaxin, sorry."

"Why are you saying sorry?" He asked with confusion, "What does those tears mean, Yong, tell me."

"Its been four years since she was gone." I said, "She died before you woke up from your coma."

"W-what?" He furrowed, "What do— so what is she to me, why was I so happy with her, why did she died, why do I get into coma?"

"She was... your fiancé, uncle. You we're near the month of wedding that day you've gone into the hugest disaster you can be at, she died because of a shot on her stomach, she was awake that time. Looking at you, crying, shouting for help. Mom, dad, Uncle Yuhan, tried to rescue all of you. But she didn't really make it after a month, she lost too many bloods, then she had an internal bleeding..." I sobbed.

Uncle's eyes are now forming tears, he was staring at me when he held his head and closed his eyes, he was groaning in pain, I was telling him to calm down but he resumed doing it, "Aaaaah! It hurts, it fucking hurts!!!"

"Uncle, calm down, this will do nothing!" I yelled back for him to hear me despite of him groaning in pain. "This is not the way to restore your memory—"

"GONGZHU!" He yelled while continued groaning in pain, I was shaking the moment he shouted her name but then mom and dad came running to us, mom pulled me away from uncle while dad was opening a syringe to inject uncle a calming medicine.

I was panting the moment I saw him fell on dad's arms, dad took him to his room and went back for where I was. "What happened to him?"

"He was having seizure, I heard him yelling Gongzhu's name. He was traumatized by it, once he was between seizure, he says her name, but doesn't remember anything about her. I feel sad about what he is going through." dad sighed.

"Dad, I thought he remembered her." I stood up. "Mom, why can't he get his memories back?"

"I don't know, Yong." Mom shook her head and held my hand, "Don't worry, everything will be alright, okay?"

I nodded and looked at dad, he just smiled back at mom and smiled at me. "Let's forget about what happened today, he will also do."

I sighed, that means, his memories are not yet restored. But I will help him to get it back as soon as we can, it's hard to be him.

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