Fan Series #2; Unpredicted Dreams

21; Dad's Heart is Broken

ZHUBAO

"What the heck, Junhao?" I yelled, "You really choose the child over your wife, how the fuck can you find a woman like her—"

"It just guilts me not letting the baby see this world once in a lifetime!" He yelled back, "I don't know what to do, all my decisions aren't right, I am not in my fucking sane!"

"You will let the child awoken from the cruel and mercy less world, you are just thinking about your sake, Junhao, this world is fucked up," I pointed him as I walked away.

"But you are also having another child, why can't I then?" he asked that made me look at him over my shoulders.

"It fucking hurts seeing a child growing up without a mother, Shun. It hurts, like hell." I said as I continued walking away.

"My love, Zhubao, come back here!" Ji walked after me.

Ji kept calling my name, but I ran outside and drove my car away, I know my clothes are full of blood, and I know I looked like I killed someone. But I need to get away with this, he chose the child and I have nothing to do with it, he held the decision, he is all on it.

He is the husband after all.

I went to the hotel and took a bath, after that, I changed clothes and packed my things, before I could see my sister's cold corpse, I need to leave, I don't know but I need to. After packing my things, I went to Yong's room, I saw him tightly sleeping when I bent down to give him a peck of kiss on his forehead. "Don't worry, my little hero, I will be back. Mom will be back after the catastrophes, I will end this, and we will have the last laugh, together."

I caressed his forehead and stood up, I turned the lights off and was about to close the door, however, I looked at him from my shoulders while tears kept falling from my eyes. I may be not the perfect mother, but I need to do everything to keep my loved ones safe.

I went to Tianze's room and pressed the doorbell, he opened it with a shock but mind to ask me, "What happened to you?"

My tears kept falling, I can't say a word, my lips we're shaking, but before I could fall to the ground, he pulled me for a tight hug, and in just a minute. I have gained an energy to speak. "One could only survive, and Junhao chose my sister to be taken..."

I can feel his heart beating so fast, his chest is pounding in shock but kept hugging me tight. "I am so sorry to hear that, Zhubao..."

I just cried; I don't know why but I can't speak any word anymore, until he told me that I could stay on his house in China whenever I want, and that night as well, we traveled back to China. He entertained me, I didn't want to, but he did give me midnight snack and some milk before bed. I lay down and stared at the ceiling, I would rather go away than to see my sister's cold corpse on the coffin, it would break my heart to the tiniest pieces it could be. 

It was like killing me over and over again.

JI

I didn't know she could leave us without telling me, I was looking for her since last night, but I didn't see any sign of her, all of her things on our hotel closet are so messy, her important things are missing.

I am still asking myself if why she left us, she left me and her son alone, but my heart keeps saying that she won't do that, she is the best mother and the best wife we ever had, she would never do something like that.

Can she?

I sat down the bed and harshly pulled my hair, staring at the open closet where some things are missing, I don't know what to think. I am stressed and exhausted, I don't know what to do. I sighed, that's when I heard Yong's voice from behind, "Dad, I dreamed about hearing mom say, don't worry, my little hero, I will be back. Mom will be back after the catastrophes, I will end this, and we will have the last laugh, together. Dad, that was so realistic–"

I stared at him with my tears falling, "That wasn't a dream, Yong. It's all true, your mom left us..."

"Dad, it was a dream, I was closing my eyes." He smiled behind those tears falling from his eyes. "Mom would never leave us, she loves us, she is not that selfless just to fight by herself..."

"Yong, she's selfless... because that's how she loves us. I know she will be safe, she promised me to always get home safe..." I smiled and kneeled down my son, I gave him a hug and whispered. "Your mom's promises will not be broken..."

"Daddy, I don't want mommy to leave..." His voice was broken, and the pain was completely doubled on my chest. "Daddy please let's look for her—"

"No, Yong, she did this for us to be safe..." I told him. "She did this to stay away from more burden, she did this to save us..."

"Uncle, I heard Uncle Junhao saying that it was his fault why auntie Zhubao left... what did he do?" It was Xiansen. "Is it because he chose Auntie Yelimi to die?"

I gave him a look, he knows. Yong stared at him, tilted his head and continued crying, "I lose mom, now I also lose my Auntie?"

"Yong, no. You didn't lose your mom—"

"But it just looks like that, dad, mom is not around, so as auntie now. What's the point of living, then?" He yelled. "My life sucks, I wish, I just wish she isn't my mom!!!"

My eyes widened the moment he yelled those words to my face, "What the hell, Yong, Zhubao didn't regret having you... us in her life and now you wish not to have her?!"

"Ji, what's happening here?" Hang asked but Yong and I kept our eyes staring at each other.

"I didn't know you could say such words to the best mother you had, Yong. I can't believe you..." My voice broke the time I ended those words, I walked away carrying all the pain my wife and son gave me.

Despite of that, I don't regret having them in my life.

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