Idinas P.O.V.
James' words from yesterday linger in my mind. I know that was has to happen but I can come to terms with it. My life would be changed forever by the four words "I want a divorce". The thought of not having someone to hold me at night, to make me laugh till I cry, give me encouragement when I need it,I'd have to kiss all the things I'd loved about him goodbye. However, there were so many things now about him that there were to hate, I knew what I had to do and soon.
Taye and I are sitting at the kitchen table. "Taye we need to talk,"
"About what?" He answers sounding annoyed
"I want a divorce," I state bluntly sighing
"Why?" He answers
"You know why, " I say pointing to a bruise,
"Idina I was drunk you can't blame me for that stuff," he says
"Taye I'm done, you can go live a happy life with your new girlfriend, goodbye," I huff walking into the bedroom to grab Walkers and my things.
When I walk into walkers room he is playing with his dinosaur figures. "Hey walk can mommy talk to you," I ask him gently.
"Okay mommy, " he answers smiling
"Mommy and daddy are going to be away from each other for a while. Walk,"
"Why?" He asks his eyes saddening
"Well sometimes mommies and daddies just don't want live with each other anymore because they fight too much,and daddy and I have been fighting too much, just remember that we love you no matter what happens," I answer him
"As long as your happy mommy,"
Tears begin to form in my eyes as we begin our exit. Walker hugs Taye goodbye and I wish him well in whatever path he decides to take in his life. he does the same for me.
I have no idea where to go. What to do. as I'm now driving around my now sleeping son around NYC. I finally come across an apartment complex that's even closer to the Richard Rodgers. We check to make sure that there is a place available for us in the complex.
I find the floor of the room Id been assigned. To my surprise I see none other than James Snyder walking. Down the hallway. we exchange a glance and then a smile "Dee what are you doing here?" He asks
"I got a place here, Taye and I are splitting up," I sigh.
He sees the look in my eyes and pulls me into a tight hug. I fake a smile and begin make my way to my flat.
I walk in to the room. it's furnished nicely and clean. I take in my surroundings. Memories of those nights of terror flash through my mind like lightning. My breathing becomes heavy and I know I'm in the midst of a mild panic attack maybe being on my own wouldn't be as nice and good as I thought.
The daylight begins to fade and its night time,what used to be filled with conversation, fun and laughter is now lonely and exhaustion. Once everything is unpacked. I decide that Walker needs to go to bed so I tuck him in with a kiss and a bedtime story.
I took the Sunday show off because I wanted to settle in. The bed I'm now laying in is comfortable but it doesn't feel the same not having someone to share it with.
Waking up in the morning was always a difficult task for me. This particular morning feels even tougher. I glance at the alarm clock. the bright green numbers read 7:30. Then Walker walks in just as he does every morning without fail. I lay his clothes out get his backpack and lunch packed and all the other things needed for him to have a successful day at school.
I get back into the car after signing him in and making sure that he's okay. I shed a tear realizing that my baby is growing up before my eyes and how stupid I'd been for caring more about fighting with Taye day in and day out than the fact that I have a son who needs care.
The day goes by very slowly. I don't have a show to be getting ready for My son doesn't need to get picked up til later. I flip the T.V. on. I see my face on the illuminated screen. "Idina Menzel seen without wedding ring walking through New York City," the reporter states continuing that statement by giving her theories as to why that may be that I wasn't wearing my wedding band anymore. Of course I knew why and I don't want anyone else to. At least just yet. I take to Twitter to let them know that my personal life will stay personal until I feel like it's an appropriate to make a statement.
The weeks go on to say the least its pure hell. It's absolute torture not having Taye to back me up on parenting all the time. Also having a built in best friend who is your age was a plus side of married life, someone you could share your thoughts and feelings with. Not that I can't do that with Walker but he wouldn't understand any of it. I slowly have slipped into what some may call depression. I feel as though the whole world is working against me, as stupid and selfish as that sounds.
A/N I know I've been gone far too long to give you guys such a horrible chapter but I needed to end it so I could give you guys something. The show I was in recently ended so I'm a bit freed up now! I'm going to get the next chapter done as quick as I can. I promise there'll be some Jadina soon. But for now enjoy 💕
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Jadina: A love story
AcakA jadina fic very similar to the one I've been writing but had to delete because it was distracting me way too much from school and stuff. Same concept as the last story I lowered Idinas age for the purpose of the story of you read my last story you...
