Negative, I feel a hint of sadness twinge over me. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be I think. I feel guilty knowing that James really wants a kid and I almost do too. It pains me knowing that he isn't getting something he desires. I look at the unopened test I decide that maybe taking that one would be a good idea.
After the test is done as it should be I set it on the counter just as I did last time set the timer for three minutes. I sit there nervously awaiting the result.I hear the alarm noise go off. I take a deep breath as I lift the little stick up off the counter one line one fucking line I hold back tears. I then see a second line begin to form parallel to it through blurry eyes and crack a smile.
I wash my hands and open the door. James has a smile on his face as a I walk out of the bathroom. "So what's the verdict?" He asks.
"I don't know you tell me," I say showing him the positive test. He has a wide grin on his face.
"I can't believe it were going to have a kid," He shouts happily disturbing Walker from his playing.
"What's going on mommy?" He asks me sweetly.
"Walker mommy and James have something very important to talk to you about," I begin sitting him down on the couch he situates himself on my lap. "Walker mommy has a baby in her belly," I start he has a bewildered expression in his eye
"You ate the baby," he asks giggling
"No I didn't eat the baby, the magical baby fairies put it there." I say knowing that I'm lying but what else am I supposed to say to a 5 year old?
"Ohhh..." He says
I look at my son and remember being pregnant with him and how excruciatingly painful it was but the idea that another little child to love and cherish warms my heart. "Are you excited to be a big brother?" James asks him.
"Kind of, as long as the baby isn't stinky like my friend Connors baby sister," He replies holding his nose "PU" he ends.
"I don't think I can make you any promises buddy," I say ruffling his hair.
"Aww man," he pouts the little pucker in his little lips is adorable I can't help but laugh at how hard he's trying to look upset. "What are you laughing at" he pouts even more.
"Nothing," I sigh kissing his temple as he wiggles his way off my lap and resumes playing with his toys.
James lays a hand on my stomach even though there's no bump yet I Smile at his touch "I can't believe there's actually a little baby in there Dee, I can't wait till you start getting a cute little belly," he says while smiling.
"I'm going to be a whale," I sigh laying my head on his chest.
"Honey you're gorgeous and you'll still be gorgeous whether you're not pregnant or 8 months pregnant so don't say otherwise,"
"At some point we're going to have to tell the parents and the other family members," I tell him.
"Yeah you're right, when do you think would be an appropriate time?" He asks
"Maybe sometime we could take a trip for a few days to Long Island to visit my family, but in not sure what we're going to about your family since their out in California," I reply
"We can just FaceTime them or call them we don't have to make a big deal of it if you don't want to," he says
"James I want to i really want to meet your family in person and this kind of news isn't the kind you tell over phone," I tell him I continue to feel guilty that my parents and sister got the news of the engagement in person and James's family had to hear it over phone call. I don't want the same guilt about this baby news.
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Jadina: A love story
عشوائيA jadina fic very similar to the one I've been writing but had to delete because it was distracting me way too much from school and stuff. Same concept as the last story I lowered Idinas age for the purpose of the story of you read my last story you...
