We arrive home from the hospital James carries Walker who surprisingly never even stirred while we were in the hospital back into the apartment and lays him in his bed.
I take a long hot shower as I let the hot water pour down onto my back I contemplate my newest challenge. "Bed rest," most people would say that it's nice doing absolutely nothing all day and just relaxing. The sentiment is nice and all but I can't fathom the idea of people having to do everything for me.
I step out of the shower wrap my self up in a towel and get into sweatpants and and long sleeved shirt. I undo the covers to my bed and slip under the sea of blankets. I begin to get tired it's going to be a long few months I think to myself as I drift into dreamland.
I wake up about 2 hours later Walker has climbed into bed with me. "Hey there sweetie," I say forcing a smile.
"Hi mommy," I hear the sadness in his voice.
"What's wrong?" I ask him pulling him closer.
"Will you still love me when the baby's here?" He asks me.
"Of course I will I'll never stop loving you, Walk what makes you think that I'll stop loving you," I ask him.
"Well once the baby is here you'll have to spend all your time with them and you'll forget about me," he tells me I can see the tears forming behind his eyes.
"Walker, I'm not going to lie I will have to spend a ton of time with the baby. It will be a lot harder for us to have Walker and mommy time but, That doesn't mean I love you any less. When a mommy has a 2nd child it's not like the 1st child is like the old broken toy that can be thrown away or forgotten about I love you both with all my heart that'll never change," I explain, My face scrunches up in pain as I feel the baby kick
Walker begins to laugh "Mommy why are you making that face?" He asks
"The baby is kicking me walk," I respond "You want to feel it," he lays his tiny hand on my large tummy and giggles "Pretty cool isn't it?" I ask him
"Yeah I guess so," he responds smiling.
"I love you Walker don't ever forget that," I tell him.
"I won't mamma," he leans over and kisses my cheek.
After what seems like an eternity of staring at the ceiling trying to forget that I'm basically trapped underneath these covers for three months. Walkers words drift through my head. what had made him say that? I ask myself. I begin to tear up because I feel as though it's my fault that he doesn't feel loved. I've failed as a mother I whisper to myself.
The weeks go by and I continue to become increasingly distant from the world around me I've neglected to post a single thing on social media since bed rest. I've completely become detached from everything that I love. I feel as though there's a barrier between me and the world that keeps caving inwards and one day it's going to all come crashing down and reduce me to nothing.
James comes knocking at the door as I wake up from my traditional afternoon nap what can I say? being 7 months pregnant can be tiring on ones body bed rest or not. "Hey there honey I've got a surprise for you." he says.
I crack a small grin at his words. Before I know it Jenn, Jackie, LaChanze, my mom and sister all walk into the room with gifts
"Dee look at you you're..." my sister starts off
"Pregnant," I dead pan earning a bit of laughter
"Hey Dee how are yah?" Jenn asks
"Honestly I've been bored being in bed rest is kind of depressing," I sigh " but it's so nice seeing all of you," I reply smiling
"How's the baby doing?" My mom asks
"The baby's doing great nothing abnormal since I was condemned to my bed," I say rubbing my belly.
We all chat for a while thankfully my bedroom is big enough for all of us to be comfortably situated during this little impromptu baby shower of sorts . "oh did you want to open your gifts?" Jackie asks excitedly.
"Why the hell not?" I retort. I'm handed what seems like infinite numbers of packages.
I take the box wrapped in pink and green, an obvious hint to wicked, and tear into it. As I'm opening the gifts I'm overwhelmed with gratitude I receive, blankets, onesies, bottles, diapers, pacifiers and all the other baby necessities. "thank you so much everyone," I say tears of joy springing to my face.
"Dee we have one last thing to show you if you think you can get up for a few seconds," Janet tells me.
My mom helps me up out of bed and guides me down the hallway I'm instructed to cover my eyes as we come to an abrupt stop at one of the doors.
I hear the door creak open I'm guided into the room. "Okay open your eyes," Jenn instructs I uncover my eyes and I am greeted by a nursery. The walls are painted a pale yellow with dark wood furniture it's basically a canvas that allows James and I to plan accordingly depending on the gender of our child.
"It's perfect," I exclaim taking in the surroundings.
I hear James prodding down the hallway he walks in "I'm so glad you like it," he says wrapping his arm around me. I rest my head on his shoulder.
We all walk out to the kitchen area I quickly sit down on the bar stool. We all chat the night away. I am so grateful that my friends could all be there to life my sprits. James and all thank them for all of their wonderful gifts and for just coming.
I begin to feel extremely tired James helps me back into bed. Just as I begin to finally fall asleep I feel a kick. James giggles at my silly faces he then begins taking pictures. "Snyder don't you dare post those any where," I warn
I watch as he shows me his phone he's clicked the dreaded post button the caption reads 'This Baby is all ready a pro at keeping mommy up #kicking "oops," he retorts giggling I try to reach for the phone to delete the post but it's too late the pictures are out there I'm sure my fans are already reposting them.
"Asshole," I huff playfully punching his arm.
"You know you love me," He taunts kissing my cheek
"Of course I do," I say as another kick comes in.
He lays a hand on my belly smiling as he feels the kicking of our precious little one. he leans his head to my tummy "Hey kid I know we haven't officially met but I'm your daddy, I love you so much but please let your mommy get some rest," he whispers. He quickly kisses my tummy and then he leans up and kisses me. "Goodnight my love," he says as we both drift into sleep.
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Jadina: A love story
RandomA jadina fic very similar to the one I've been writing but had to delete because it was distracting me way too much from school and stuff. Same concept as the last story I lowered Idinas age for the purpose of the story of you read my last story you...
