Flash back: (A/N this chapter isn't a flash back to before the engagement but it's still a flashback since this is before the events of the rest of the chapter) James and I sit on the couch we've just gotten back from a cast party were a just little bit drunk but not enough to be unaware of the situation. Walker is at his grandparents for the night. I stumble into the kitchen turning on the radio a slow love song comes on.
I take James' hands helping to support him while he gets off the couch. He wraps his arms around my waist and I wrap my arms around his shoulders we sway back and forth to the music. I lean my head on his shoulder it feels comfortable. Once the slow song is over we go back to sitting on the couch. He begins to lean towards me. Our lips meet in a sweet passionate kiss I turn my head a little deepening the kiss. We continue to gain energy and passion. I gasp as he unzips my dress. "James," I interrupt
"What is it sweetie," he replies
"Nothing," I lie. Knowing that I haven't been intimate since Taye and I split and that time wasn't amazing either I was basically Tayes little toy and once he got what he wanted he went to sleep. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with that hurt again I trust James we've just never been together in this way before I'm so unsure of my self.
"No baby there's something up you can tell me," he says comforting me.
"I-It's just I haven't been intimate in forever and I don't know if I'm ready, I don't want to mess up and ruin everything if I'm not ," I respond tears forming.
"Honey you won't screw it up you look beautiful and are amazing in every way. I won't force you to do anything I love you so much and hate seeing you upset," he says me kissing my forehead
"I love you too James and I know in my heart that I'm ready my mind is just putting all these blockers out telling me every single insecurity I have," I fall into his arms sobbing he holds me there.
"Hey it's okay baby," he coos rubbing the small of my back. I melt at his touch and begin compose myself I am not allowing my self pity take over my life I'm going to just let my heart win I kiss James sweetly after drying my face.
We continue where we left off I forget every single insecurity and let my heart take the lead. James lifts me up bridal style never breaking the kiss I kick my heels off while in his arms and we head into the bedroom.
End of flashback
I stand over the toilet remembering the events of that one night clearly, my stomach is queasy. Before I know it I drop to my knees and empty the contents of my stomach. I throw my hair up in a bun to keep the vomit out of my hair
Stare at myself in the mirror as I brush my teeth hoping to get the wretched taste out of my mouth hoping that it's just something that didn't settle well with my stomach. Then it clicks that night was a month ago. I could very well be pregnant. The timing works out perfectly. I then remember that my period was due last week. shit.
I see James out in the living room playing with Walker. Nausea overcomes my body, my legs turn into complete jello looking at him. "Hey Sweetheart," he says standing up
"Hey" I reply quietly, hugging him.
"You okay?" he asks playing with my hair.
"I feel kinda preg- nauseous," I correct myself .
"Wait you were about to say pregnant," He says I can't tell whether he's happy or upset about it.
"I don't know if I am I just feel the way I did when I was carrying Walker, please don't be mad at me if I am please don't leave me," I plea.
"Idina, I'll never leave you you know that," he kisses my forehead. "If anything I'm excited and even if you're not pregnant then hey maybe if you're willing to we can try again after the wedding," he says
I close my eyes and sigh feeling relieved "Do you think we should go and get a test now or do you want to wait a while?" I ask him.
"Whatever you want my love," he answers.
I think to myself the pros and cons of waiting and going now. I decide that I'd rather know now. "Can we go now?" I ask him.
"Of course," he responds smiling
After we get Someone to watch Walker for a couple minutes and get ready we walk hand in hand to the cvs across the street from our apartment. I look for the aisle that the pregnancy tests would be found in and select three tests that look the most reliable. I begin to feel the nervousness rise up inside me.
"it's going to be okay," James whisper as we step up to the counter.
After the tests are paid for we head back home. I walk through the door thank the baby sitter and walk into the bathroom Jmaes waits right outside the door.
I inhale deeply as I rip the package open. I take the little slip with directions on it and read it carefully. i follow the instructions word for word. once I complete the test I set it on the counter and feel my heart beating heavily the three minutes waiting for my results are the longest three minutes for my life,
I finally hear the timer go off. I pick up the test slowly refusing to look at it. I finally turn my head and it reads....
Authors note: Cliff Hanger 👿 I hope you all enjoyed this installment of my lil story. thank you all for you continued support keep reading 💘
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