Words I Want To Say To You

A month before we met (day 1)

They used to question me why I liked someone. All I ever say is "I don't know," because there is no precise reason why I like them; all I know is that I like them, but now if they ask me what I liked about you, why I liked someone like you, I can answer.

First and foremost, you are close to God. I am not saying that you are a perfect person simply because you are close to the Lord because we are all sinners. On March 16, that was the first day that I was so attached to you even though we were just listening to a worship song. I was very happy at that time because you were the way and the reason for me to gradually change myself.

It was really chaotic two years ago, and I neglected God; I rarely communicate to him except when absolutely necessary; I used to have prayer time, attend meetings and talks, constantly went to church, and read the bible; now everything has changed. So I thank you for coming into my life and met you because you are one of my inspirations for my gradual improvement, (I always include you to my prayer).

Anyway let's move on

I asked Shie if she was available on June 17 or 18 because we had planned to meet, and she said she checked her schedule, so the plan was changed to July 13 because you two would meet on that date, and I was like "ohh the plan was even better" so that we could talk and meet for a while.

Do you know that I always read what I write because I told myself that something might be incorrect, and then I realized that how could anything be wrong in what I write if everything I say is true?.

My heart beats faster every time you tell me you're crying for no reason, and I'm worried about you; just always tell me when you're having a hard time, and I'll always offer to be the shoulder you can lean on.

Anyway, my friends already know you, I remember one time when we were eating at a supermarket and that one friend of mine ask me how are we and I was like omg don't ask me about her when we're eating cause I'm too shy to respond and I always ended up with a big smile on face.

I'm always thinking of wonderful things to say simply so we can't stop talking, and I'm running out of stories to tell you, so I'm sorry if I can't always respond to the last word you said.

Do you remember when you send a screenshot of a conversation about Yve and that pastor talking about lovelife? I have something to tell you about Yve and I that time seriously, when we're at bigo everyone knows that I liked you, so in Shie's live we're talking about you and I of course and then there's Yve saying that "why didn't you confess Embs to find out who's better to the both of us" something like that and then there's me thinking what to say but I prefer to remain silent because in my mind i was like is he reffering to a competition? Wth

Is changing nickname are one reason why we fell in love? I don't know, but for me I was so happy when you change my it, I'm glad and happy.