Thirty-Two Bridge (Luke Bryan)

Play Back And Catchin up

It's been a month since Kelly has passed away. I have been still having sudden heartbreak moments from it but I have been going through it easier. My friends say that I have been seeming more up him than down. In other words I've seemed more happy than sad. I've spent alot of time writing new music at my home. It helps keep my mind off things. I have pretty much kept busy since the day she passed. I'm understanding more that God has a plan and that plan is unknown to me and I just need to understand that whatever he is planning is for the better.

Caroline and I decided to split. We split two weeks ago. That was really rough. I keep telling myself she's the one. She's my future. I even wrote a couple songs about her. It's just I am missing that spot in my heart. I just keep on keepin on and thinkin that if We are meant to be we'll meet up again.

There really wasn't a solid reason to why we decided to end it, there were a few different reasons. The main one was cause Kelly passed and we decided that it would be better to split.. Or she decided that. Also I think she had her eyes on some one else.. Considering she's with someone so soon, just a playboy though. And she's very apprehensive about my career and I. She's scared ill just leave her or cheat when I "get all the ladies chasin me." But ill never do that. I thought about trying to find some one but I still like Caroline. But we'll see how things go.

I also have a meeting with Capitol records tomorrow. The make up meeting. Ed called me last week and I told him everything and he was wondering when a new time to meet was. He said not to worry and to take my time, but I decided not to and to get it over with. I need to get my career going.

Otherwise I haven't really been up to much. Just been at home. I've spent alot of money lately though on beer and whiskey... I keep tellin myself to cut down and cut down. And I know I am slowly. Daddy always would tell me that drinking away the pain doesn't work. It makes it worse. but if you are gonna try drinkin it away make sure you count. I still do it though. It's been getting better though.