In love with my Brother (Austin Mahone Fanfic)

Chapter 48

I thought and my mind took me back to the day I was leaving forever... or so I thought. I was packing up everything into the small car I bought from a used car auto shop. It was small and it could fit five people, but it was really crappy. The boxes crammed into the backseats taking up two seats. A couple of my personal things, and my clothes. Shutting the door closed I looked at my moms house one last time. The place looked so cozy, and filled with love.
Love that only my mom embraced, and I didn't know how I didn't have such a big heart like hers.

The aroma of the air smelled of wet pavement and the gloomy dark grey color filled the sky. The slippery noise of my shoes on the wet concrete squeaked when I walked and I went over to the front porch to leave a letter, but thought twice about it. I decided to not leave it, and just take it with me, because I knew if my mom ever found it and read it, she'd be heartbroken.

I walked back to the car and I didn't feel an ounce of regret for what I was going to do. I wasn't thinking about myself during that moment. I was thinking of my mom. I wanted her to be happy and if I stayed and started acting up Id make her miserable. That's why I decided to leave. So I could act up but not in front of her. Not in front of the women who knew she had raised me better...or thought. "Bye mom. I love you" I whispered quietly and opened the door and slid inside the small vehicle. Shutting the door closed, my tensed muscles relaxed.

"One last stop" I told myself "and then I'm gone" backing out the driveway I turned over the car so it was now parallel to the road. Ahead of me was a long line of small houses just like the suburbs would look like. Putting my foot on the gas pedal the old engine roared, and the car began moving.

I drove on until I reached the intersecting lights and I turned a right. Passing a gas station. And passing our old middle school. The place where Amy and I first met.

Looking at the open field and cafeteria brought in so many memories into my mind that I had to stop the car and get out to stop them from flowing in. I shook my head continuously, but they would just all fill in my head and id see her face in front of mine. Her big smile, and big pretty brown eyes.

"shit." I said getting in some more fresh air. "Why is this so hard ?! Why can't I just leave and forget !? Why do I have to feel this pain !?"

Because you love her.

I crossed the street and a fence was in front of me. The grey old thing dividing the school campus and the sidewalk.

The air swooshing across it made it a bit chilly, and I looked all around the place. It felt like just yesturday was the day, I came walking in through the doors and was the new kid.

Standing there, infront of the empty school I let the memories come back, and remembered.

It was eighth grade. I was wearing some pair of khakis and a striped blue,white, and grey sweatshirt. A pair of old schooled all white nikes, topped with a full grey SnapBack on my head with the front facing back.

"Now don't be nervous, you'll make new friends. Just be nice alright ?" My mom said patting my back.

"Mom I'm not a little kid, I know how to make friends." I remember telling her shaking her hand off my shoulder.

"Okay, well love you. I'll pick you up after school." She said and I looked down to my schedule when I remembered a kid bumping into me.

"Hey watch it !" I loudly said and the kid fell onto the floor with his books covering the floor surface.

"Sorry, I ...I was looking down on my book, didn't see you there..." He said putting on his glasses. He looked nice, but nerdy....

"It's alright, here" I had said holding out my hand to help him up. He had given me a small grin and picked up his books while I helped.