In love with my Brother (Austin Mahone Fanfic)

Chapter 45

I laid against the head rest of the gernie, while Austin sat beside me having his hands up to his mouth. He looked zoned out and I snapped my fingers in front of him bringing him back to the world.

"Doctor here ?" He asked shaking his thoughts away. He wiped his hands continuously onto his jeans and he nervously got up walking back and forth.

"What's wrong ?" I asked concerned at his sudden change in moods. Plopping my elbows on the surface I looked at him puzzled, and wanted to know why he was acting so....scared.

"Well--" before we could get into the conversation we were interrupted by the doctor barging in with huge smiles, and greetings to the both of us.

"How are you Amy ?!?" He said in a cheerful, chirpy way that I found annoying. I looked over at Austin and he gave me a look, shaking his head. Sending a message I knew this was to be talked privately, not with a doctor in the room listening.

"We'll talk about it later" he mouthed and I nodded looking over at the doctor.

"I'm good .. How about you doc ?" I asked smiling trying to hide my annoyed face. We were in a small room with just the three of us, and he sat onto a rolling chair moving back and forth writing on papers, reading my records, and then scanning my leg.

"I'm good, just trying to see if your leg is strong enough to have this cast removed so you could walk freely with both your legs without feeling like you're carrying around a brick." He chuckled. I smiled looking over at Austin and he just rolled his eyes.

"Well...any improvement?" I asked curiously. He continued writing onto the file that was titled with my name.

"we'll see right now." He said nicely and he got up giving me an assuring look. I laid down completely flat with my belly facing the roof. I inhaled a deep breath then exhaling it relaxing just the way the doctor told me last week. My muscles releasing and not being so tensed I laid with only staring at the white ceiling.

He began to move my leg little by little, sending a little pain up to my back, but nothing I couldn't bare. He moved it carefully to the right, and I began to breathe in and out so the pain would vanish. To the left I repeated the process. Austin came by my side and held my hand letting me know I was going to be okay.

With every movement the doctor began to move more and more, causing more and more pain to sting making my whole leg go numb. I bit down onto my lip holding in the shouts I wanted to give out. I looked over at Austin and his whole face read 'worry and scared'. He squinted his eyes whenever I would groan from the pain.

"One last one." The doctor said. I thought the last one was the less painful, when I felt, he pulled onto it more harder than any other time. Catching me by surprise I couldn't hold it in and I screamed out in pain, as my eyes filled with water.

"One more Am--" the doctor began to say but Austin interrupted him.

"that's enough !!! Don't you see her in pain already ?!? She's in tears man. I think that's enough." Austin stood up quickly from the chair towering over the doctor. I looked up at him and his eyes were darkened. His right hand rolled up in a fists, but his left...still holding my right one.

"Okay..okay..I'll go write something up...I'll be back in about 10 minutes." The doctor said quickly leaving the room leaving us both alone.

He looked down at me and got on his knees, "babe...you okay ?" He asked scared at the response. I shook my head weakly, biting on my lip the after pain began to come in and I grabbed his hand harder and harder wanting it to go away. Wanting that pain to go away for good.

"Tell me where it hurts.... I'll kiss it all better." He said bringing my hand to his lips leaving soft kisses all over it.
He brought up his right hand and cleaned the tears from my cheeks away.
"I'm sorry Amy...I'm so sorry..." I shook my head not wanting him to feel so guilty about what happened to me. It was never his fault that they decided to brutally keep me hostage.

"Don't be, okay ?... I know you feel like it's your fault...but it's not." I began to say letting go of his hand and bringing my small hand to his cheek. Making him look up, I saw the tears forming at the edge of his eyes. He blinked letting one go and I wiped it away.

"It is my fault Amy...it just is." He said letting another one leave his eye.

"No. Okay ? It's not your fault." He looked away, not wanting to hear it. "Look at me." I said making him look into my eyes. "Blame yourself...fine. But in my eyes, you're not the monster I thought you were when you came back... You're the hero that was misunderstood. Because without you, I wouldn't have survived. I would've stayed there to die slowly in pain, and misery." My eyes began to tear up, as I put my heart out to this troubled guy that I loved so much. "You weren't there for me until you came back, yes. And I'm sad that you weren't there for many things I was going through. But you know what ?" He looked at me sniffling,"You're here now. With me. You're here by my side and just the way you told me you'll kiss it all better, when I'm in pain. I'll do the same with you. If it's physically or emotionally, I will be here for you Austin. Because without you, I know I wouldn't be in this world right now. Youre my lifesaver. You're my hero." He looked at me with so much sorrow, and pain it hurt me so much.

I felt as if the words were sinking into his mind, but not completely. I knew those words that I would tell him. Those words I would use to talk down at him when he came back, were still there. I knew he was scared that maybe I'd use those words once again towards him. But I myself knew I wouldn't even think about it. "I love you Austin." I said bringing him into a hug, then linking my lips onto his, feeling a few tears roll down his cheeks.

He let go, nuzzling his face onto the crook of my neck and I distantly heard him say, "thank you....thank you for making me feel loved again. Loved again from someone that I love so much."

All this misunderstood boy wanted was to be loved again. He wanted someone to feel an affection towards him.

it felt like a stab to the chest that so many of us. Including me , were spitting on him like dirt. All of us were so selfish to think that he caused us so much misery, and so much trouble. We never knew that we broke him down more and more each time we'd look at him in disgust.

I thought I was the one that was hurting the most, when really...it was him all along. He was the one breaking laws, stealing, killing, running. Because of me. All because he wanted to run away from the memories he had with me, filling up his mind with memories that were so brutal. So scarring to his mind. But he didn't care, because he'd do anything just to make those memories fade away. No matter what the cost.

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So this was supposed to be with the other chapter but again... Wattpadd wanted to be glitchy today... But I hope you guys liked this chapter...because it kinda made me cry... Lol. But this will be the last update of the year,.. HAHA but I'll update next week or something !! Vote of YALL liked this chapter, ❤️❤️ comment anything as well. I should get some sleep , goodnight !! And happy New Years !! ❤️