May wakes up with a sore neck and aching back, she looks around and sees that lee has already gone to work. "The couch is pretty shitty" she says to herself. She looks out the window to see all the guys from the bunkhouse working in the arena and that made her think about the fact that she hadn't ridden a horse in years.
As May is walking down to the arena she runs into Rip. "Look who decided to come back home" rip said before giving her the biggest bear hug. "Yup, back for good, hopefully" Rip laughs.
"So what are you doing down here? Is your dad having you herd cattle or something?" May laughs.
"No, I wanted to go for a ride. I was wondering if you could spare Ryan for the day" Rip raises his eyebrows and gives May a look. "Oh really? Ryan?"
"Relax Rip, it's just so I don't get eaten by a bear or something"
"Yeah I'm sure that's the reason. He is free to go "protect you from the bears""
She laughs as she starts to walk away "thanks"
"That girl is crazy" Rip says to himself.May walks up to the arena and leans on the gate. "Hey cowboy" she yells out to Ryan. Ryan turns and walks up on his horse towards May. "Hey what are you doing down here?"
"I want you to take me on a ride"
"Okay, where do you want to go?"
"I don't know, anywhere, I kind of just want to ride"
"You must really enjoy my company" he says with a cheeky grin.
"Are you coming with me or not?" May says a bit annoyed. "Yeah go saddle a horse. You do know how to saddle a horse right?" Ryan teased. May rolls her eyes and heads toward the barn.As Ryan and May were riding out Rip calls out to them, "hey you guys have protection?" He says in a joking tone. Mays eyes widened as she turned back to yell at Rip, "for the bears....do you have a gun?" He says while laughing. "Yeah I have one" Ryan yells out. May shakes her head in disbelief. "What was that about?" Ryan asks. "It's nothing, he's just teasing, ignore him"
"Okay" Ryan says trying to hide his smile."So..." Ryan says changing the subject. "I thought you didn't want to go any further with whatever this is"
"We're not, we're just riding" she said unsure if she believes it herself. It was silent for a second, "are we?....just riding?" Ryan asked. "Yeah" May said once again trying to convince herself. "Look, besides Rip and my family you are the only person I kind of know on this ranch, I wanted to go for a ride and I didn't want to go alone". Ryan chuckles, "you don't know me"
"Yeah well we aren't exactly complete strangers are we?"
"No, but I feel like I know you well enough"
She raised her eyebrows, "Oh really?"
"Yeah, you're not hard to figure out, plus I'm good at reading people"
"Alright then cowboy, tell me. Who do you think I am"
"I think the way your family has always been divided really affects you and you never felt like you were a family. You rely on your brothers because you never felt welcomed by your dad. You have a big heart but you keep it guarded, you only care for the people you love and when you do it's ride or die. Once someone gets on your bad side they can't come back from it and something happened to make you leave, I don't know what but from what I have seen it was really big." May just looks forward with no expression on her face for a second, she didn't like that he was so accurate, then this paralyzing fear came over her, she guided her horse to turn into the forest and ran. "Hey! Where are you going!" Ryan yelled following behind her, may just kept running weaving through trees, before she knew it there were tears running down her face. "May! What the fuck are you doing! Stop!" She doesn't even hear him over her sobs and she's not even paying attention to where she is going, she is running straight towards a cliff, before she could even notice her horse stops and makes a sharp turn knocking her off and running off into the woods. Ryan jumps off his horse and runs to May, trying to help her up. "Jesus Christ May are you okay? What the fuck were you thinking?"
"I'm fine!" She says, still crying as she pushes Ryan's hand away. "Don't look at me!" Ryan was really confused but still immediately turned his back to her. May stands up dusting off her clothes and wiping her tears, trying to stop crying. "Are you going to tell me what's going on?" Ryan asks with his back still turned to her. "No! I want to go home."
"I don't understa-"
"God you really had to go and ruin everything!" May interrupted. "What?" Ryan said baffled. He finally turned around, "you were the one who told me to tell what I thought! I didn't know you would freak out" he stops himself, and takes a deep breath. " look I'm sorry, I know you don't like opening up to people"
"Would you stop doing that!"
"Doing what?"
"Acting like you know me, you don't know me. There's so much you don't know"
"But I want to know you May! I want to know everything about you. I told you, I'm all in." May looks into his eyes and for a second she thought that maybe she could allow herself to love him but that thought quickly changed when she remembered her past. Her past, her family, this place is the reason she couldn't. "No I can't" she said with tears in her eyes. "Why not? Please, tell me why" Ryan said as he walked up to May grabbing her hands. "I've wreaked every single one of my relationships, we wouldn't stand a chance, Especially not here"
"You talk about this place like it's evil" May let's go of his hands and backs up.
"because it is".....
🎶 Too good at goodbyes- Sam Smith 🎶
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My lovely lady May
FanfictionA love story Inspired by the show Yellowstone. After being away for years May Dutton, a paramedic, meets Ryan, a cowboy that works on her family's ranch.