my little love
tell me, do you feel the way my past aches?
when you lay on me, can you hear the way my heart breaks?
i wanted you to have everything I never had
i'm so sorry if what I've done makes you feel sad"I know you don't understand this right now but mommy is really sorry and loves you so much" I tell Nora as she plays with my dress.
"maybe in a few years you will understand but I'm sorry baby" I tell her kissing her forehead. my daughter should have never seen me in the state I was in during the years.
maybe she will under in a few years but I owe her an apology, nobody would like to see their mom let herself go like I did.
"look what I got you baby" I say pulling out the small chain, she gasps cutely as I put it around her wrist, "now we're matching" I tell her showing mine.
"it's so pretty mommy" she says wrapping her arms around my neck, "I love you" I tell her kissing her head, she giggles and says it back.
I put her down letting her go back to her flowers before turning my attention to wife in front of me in her handsome tux.
You give your hand so sweetly.
I am lost if you're away.
You have me so completely.
I cherish you night and day."you're ready for your vows?" I nod as I get my paper from Claudia and smile looking at Jesse. "Jesse Jacobs" I start making her smile.
"thoughts of you surround me every single day, there hasn't been a day in the eight years I have known you that a day goes by without thinking about you. you're the beating of my heart, you're the reason I am where I am today, without you I honestly don't think I would even be here. the love you give defines me. my life is no longer dark, I know you've had to deal with a lot with me, you've sacrificed a lot of me and I'm so grateful for that"
"I know I've caused you unforgiving pain but you've given me a second chance to prove myself to you and I promise to do just that and more, I know I'm not the easiest to love but yet you're standing here, ready to marry me" I sniffle.
"from the day we met as project partners, I've written poems for you everyday which I've turned into a book I would love to give to you as a gift and I just want to read the first one right now" I tell her as Claudia hands me the thick book of poems.
she smiles paging through our picture of the front page and get to the first poem.
"As I lie in my bed,
your name's running through my head.
All I can think of is you,
All that you do,
And the way you look at me.
I feel as if I'm in a dream.
Today you told me;
The blue sky, Reminds me of your eyes,
Which give me butterflies,
I don't think I've smiled so much that my cheeks hurt.
You have brightened my life
With that beautiful smile.
No longer are my days a trial.
Your touch is like heaven
Upon my young skin.
If only you knew
That what I say is true
I would do anything just to be with you.
Hand to hand, palm to palm.
Just hold me in your arms.
I love you with all my heart
'Till the very day it falls apart.
I may be young,
But my heart is strong.
I know what love is.
It's my name and yours.
You make all the problems float away,
No matter how was my day.
I love our heart-to-heart chats
When our beats connect
And when my head starts to fade back
From when the blue sky
Turns sacred black" she finishes off sniffling as she closes the book."that's a poem I wrote about you years ago and every word is true, I think it's crazy how I still like that with you. the crazy butterflies in my stomach making me feel like I'm about to throw up" I chuckle.
"I just.. I love you so much, I hope you never forget that" I end off as she steps forward to wipe my tears. I wipe her tears too and dodge her kiss making the crowd laugh.
"we can't kiss yet" I tell her giggling, she smiles clearing her throat before she starts her vows.
I never felt such accomplishment as I felt,
the day I married Jesse.not my poem.
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burning poems
FanfictionI loved you then and I love you now, and I don't know how. guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around.