Blue is the warmest color

Chapter Twenty-three

Helena POV

"Come on, is that how the vice-president elect should smile?" Andrew whispers as students came to greet me down the hallway. 

I did it. I became vice-president and defeated Sherina Jackson. I grinned thinking she lost because of her bad reputation but then I was also jealous that she got to sleep with the boy I like once or twice. I couldn't imagine Luke's hands on her, I hated it even if he said it was a part of his job. I just couldn't understand how someone couldn't sleep with the person they said they like but then again, I was never a victim of any sexual violence, so I'd never really understand no matter how smart I think I am. 

Because... I stopped thinking by the rules now. I've learned to follow my heart, letting go of the girl I once used to be and gave birth to a version of me that Luke would love and fall for. Right, I was the one who was desperate about him since the very beginning and his cold eyes just seem to stab my soul with knife. 

"Hey!" Andrew calls, pinching me lightly on the side. I flinched as I was usually ticklish and looks at him, frightened and confused. 

I got lost in my thoughts. Didn't I? 

Andrew pulls me away from the hallway and we walked to the football field where we always hang out. I looked at his hand on mine as he holds it close to his stomach, gripping it as if I'd run but should I? Why couldn't I tell my own bestfriend that I'm hurting? Why am I running from the person who cares about me the most? 

"Bitch. can you tell me and be honest for fuck's sake! What the hell is wrong?' he asked, his face screams concern. 

I bit my lips as I looked down on the ground and Andrew holds my face and lifts it up. For a moment, our eyes met like the warm sun and the cold moon. The sun that warms and the moon that hides in fear of being told something. 

My lips starts to tremble as I saw Luke's face in my mind. How he wouldn't even look at me during breakfast and how he coldly told me he hates that I cling onto him. It hurts. It cuts. I can no longer bottle everything up, my knees felt weak and I knelt on the ground and cried as loud as I can. 

Andrew knelt beside me as he pulls me to a hug. He must've been frightened why I acted like this. Why I would bawl my eyes out in an open field like this. 

After a few minutes when I started to calm down. Andrew and I sat on the bench and I told him everything. Everything he deserves to know. At first, he was shocked that I was in love when I swore I'd never until he became infuriated that he had to see me like this because of Luke. 

"Why are you crying in there like a loser, little bitch?" Sherina yells and her little companions or I must say 'plastic friends' just grinned like the devil. 

She's in her cheer uniform, the green and gold which represents our school. She must feel bad she had to perform in front of me and the other winners for the upcoming football game. Our school always celebrates the end of the semester with a football game, it's been the norm. 

I held Andrew back as he was about to get off the bench, planning to grab Sherina. I couldn't count how many times I stopped Andrew from grabbing her, I don't want him to end up in the principal's office and suffer a consequence so I always try to keep him out of trouble even if Sherina does deserve being dragged across the hallway by a mad Andrew. 

Sherina raises her eyebrows and even rolled her eyes at us like we're grossing her out, then she walks to the other cheer members who are waiting on the other side of the field. I let out a breath of relief as I let go of Andrew's arm but as sudden as it happened, a familiar face came out, walking to the other side of the field towards the person I hate the most. 

What the hell is Luke doing in my school .

I stood up from the bench, calling him out but he doesn't even look back like he doesn't hear me. So I ran towards the field only to stop on my tracks because I saw Sherina hug Luke... and he hugged her back. 

"What... what the fuck!" Andrew came running and I pulled him back as hard as I can. 

"Andrew, stop! stop. Let's go" I begged, looking at Luke who was glaring at the both of us. 

"Let's go!" I screamed and Andrew swallowed as he looks at me with a clenched jaw. 

Me and Andrew left the field and he was so mad I had to stop him from punching Lucius in the face and I couldn't do anything but cry. 

It was a really bad day. It's like a nightmare but real and I'm living it. I never got to thank everyone who voted for me, I did nothing but stare into the blues, not letting anyone disturb me inside my sphere of darkness. 

"Helena" Ms. Cabal, our P.E. teacher called, shaking my shoulder lightly, "Ms. Gray, are you with us?" 

The bubble suddenly popped and I was somehow pulled out of the darkness. I looked around and saw my classmates waiting for me to come back to reality. "I... I'm sorry, I" 

"You seem to be out of it" Ms. Cabal stated, "I want you to go to the court to get the balls. The soft ones used for soft volleys, okay?" she ordered and I just blindly agreed though I only seem to hear her mumbling the words. 

"Ms. Gray" Ms. Cabal called again, "the soft ones, don't forget that" she whispers to my ears and then she pushes me out the door. 

I looked at Andrew who was still furious at me that he avoided my gaze and went to the court like Ms. Cabal requested. While I was on my way, I could feel my heart in my chest like an intuition that something bad is about to happen. 

But what's the worst thing that could happen to me at school but be bullied by Sherina and her group of 'friends'. 

As I was approaching the narrow hallway towards the court, I couldn't help but feel cold from the quietness of the place like there's a ghost lurking on these walls. As I stood near the door, I could hear muffled voices coming from inside.  

I couldn't help but feel disgusted and I just rolled my eyes. Students are turning the court into a motel just because it's barely used these days. I took a deep breath as I gathered the courage before barging in as part of the student council. Yes, I do have the right to scold them. I shouldn't be afraid. 

I stared at the knob and slowly held it, my heart pounding so hard on my chest. I don't know what I would see but I definitely wouldn't like it. I looked through the glass, hoping seeing someone is outside would scare them and make them stop but instead... I was the one who had seem to put my heart and everything around me to a halt. 

It took three deep breaths for me to realize the people I'm seeing; the boy holding onto the girl with his face buried on her neck and the girl sitting on his lap, no pants or skirt on, nothing but raw sex; was Luke and Sherina. 

- Fin