Leviathan (Frerard)

✞𝟏𝟖. ✞

(TW: SUICIDE)

PART V:
I FEEL SICK, I'M LIKE A DEAD BULLET

CHAPTER 2: "IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FORGETTING YOU."

Gerard's pov:

"Hey, Gee." Bert said coming out of nowhere. "Go away." "Why?" "You're not Bert. You're some weird version of him." "Fuck you." "Fuck you too." "Whatever you are I don't like you. You're not the real him. So just fuck off." I turned around and he was gone. I sighed sitting on my bed.
"Gerard." I heard Bert's real voice quiet and sad. "Bert! You're the real one." He laughed happily. "I don't have much time but I'm sorry. I knew you'd figure it out some how so I had to come here. I got possessed, and I wanted to tell you to stay alive. You've never been weak like me. That's why your still alive." "You're not.." "Gerard just listen please. It's not worth it. I want you to live. Be with Frank forget about me." "That's impossible." "What is?" "Forgetting you." He grinned. "Can I give you a kiss before I go?" He asked very innocently. I cried. "Sure, a goodbye kiss." "They were always my favorite." He grinned again and walked closer to me. I kissed him, it was a long and sad kiss. "Goodbye, Gerard I'll see you later. But not now. If you go with me I'll slap the shit out of you." I laughed. "Okay bye. I love you." "I love you too, Gerard." He disappeared again.

Mikey knocked on my door. "Gerard are you okay, I heard Bert." I grinned like an idiot. "I will be. Also I'm assuming Frank told you." He laughed. "No shit. I'm his best friend." He gave me a hug. "I'm glad your okay. Frank's worried about you." "I should go see him." I got up from my bed leaving Mikey in my room alone. I left through the window. I walked to the cemetery and smoked.
"I figured you'd be here." Frank said sitting down next to me. "I think Bert was just a figment of my imagination. I think the reason why you and Mikey saw or heard him is because I'm depressed about him dying." Frank looked at me for a moment. "Yeah, probably. I'm glad you 'saw' him. It's better for your grieving process." He said holding my hand. I smiled and stared at Bert's grave. But I lied to Frank and Mikey. I still plan to kill myself. I made a pact and I'm not going back on it. It's not like I've been happy anyways. Even if Bert does slap me it's worth it. I sighed I think Frank fell asleep on my shoulder. I feel bad for leaving but I feel that I don't have a choice anymore. I feel like I've always been destined for failure. I never really knew I could fall in love again but somehow I did. I'm going to break his heart aren't I? Maybe I could stay a little longer I put a cigarette in my mouth and lit it. I smoked and waited until Frank woke up.

"Gee? Where are you going?" "I got to go, Frank." "But why?" He said tears in his eyes almost like he knew what I was planning. "So you didn't change your mind after all." He said and kissed me. I wonder how he knows. Maybe unpossessed Bert talked to him. "Did Bert talk to you?" I asked. He stayed quiet still crying. I am being unfair after all. I don't know why he's crying. I hate seeing him cry. I stared at him for awhile considering if I wanted to leave him or just stay. Before I could think about it more I sat next to him and held his hand. "I'm sorry." I said realizing how unfair I was being to him. He didn't deserve any of this shit. I feel like all I've ever done is hurt his feelings.
"What are you sorry for?" He asked me. "Everything really. I'm sorry for not being over Bert, for falling in love with you, for being a murderer, hurting your feelings, and somehow you still care about me. I honestly don't get it. Maybe that's why our relationship is so weird." He laughed a little. "Our relationship has always been weird as shit." "What do you mean?" I asked him. He blushed a little. "I've always had feelings for you..." "What?" "Yeah, I just never told you. I mean Mikey and Ray have always known. It was a little obvious. But despite me liking you I said fuck my feelings once you started dating Bert. I knew you were happy. I didn't really want to get in the way of that." I snickered to myself. "I don't really consider you my boyfriend." He said. "Wow." He laughed. "Whatever the fuck. I bet you don't consider me your boyfriend." I looked at him. "Yeah, not really. Give me time to 'forget Bert'." "Forget Bert?" "That's what he told me to do."

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Can you tell I'm bored. That's why I'm updating this sm lol.
- Sid <3