(June 26, 2022)
i dont have the words to describe how i feel these past few days. maybe months. i dont know. I have enough motivation to do what i love; ive made the cutest amongus keychains! i've improved so much on my illustration, and i've been quite active on genshin.
But... i dont.. feel right. Like.
I try to get better. i try to talk to my...friends. i try to not cry to sleep. i try to not think too far ahead. i...try.
but somethings wrong. and i cant pinpoint it. i.
i want to cry all the time; i dont feel like i belong anywhere despite being easily adaptable; i feel like im not doing enough; im sad but not sad; i miss people i shouldn't be missing -- i dont. understand me. i dont get it.
something is wrong with me. and its not like i /need/ to find out what exactly is wrong with me, but....i just. want my friends back.
