dec 23 2023
Sometimes i ask if it was worth it to make him suffer through a kind of heartbreak that the breakup brought. I weigh the possibilities and i dont know which one could have been better anymore...
He hurts bc i left or he hurts bc i stayed. Eitherway we both would have suffered anyway right??? if i hadnt left he wouldnt be able to move on much earlier and hed just suffered much worse and much longer.. with me out of his life he can find someone new. Someone better. Someoen who treats herself like an actual person isntead of being with someone whod rather pray to be forgotten than to try and do anything to better themselves.
I dont win. I dont get to. But at least he gets to have a better future with someone else... right?
